We cannot know who God really is other than through unconditional love, and we cannot know our true identity other than through unconditional love, because it is revealed in that loving relationship with God himself. The verse I want to highlight here is Jeremiah 17:9. When you compare the NIV with the Septuagint, you see how God’s view of mankind has been twisted by the incorrect translation of this verse.
In the NIV, it reads: “The heart is deceitful above all things.” That’s a powerful statement. “And beyond cure.” Well, that’s a pretty hopeless statement: “The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?” Now, that statement has had a major effect on how people view themselves and others, putting them in a position where the soul is never fully healed, made whole, or restored, because if it’s so wicked, deceitful, and beyond cure, how can it be? It’s beyond healing, beyond restoration. But I don’t believe that’s true.
The heart of man is deep
So, what does the Septuagint say? In Jeremiah 17:9 (which is Jeremiah 17:5 in the Septuagint due to the differences in verse structure), it says: “The heart of man is deep beyond all things, and it is the man. Even so, who can know him?” In reality, what this is saying is that our heart is not wicked, deceitful, and beyond cure. Instead, it is deep beyond anything we could understand ourselves, and it really is who we are. Therefore, we cannot know who we really are in our own flesh, in our own understanding; it has to come through our relationship with God.
This different translation shapes how we perceive ourselves and others. The NIV gives a very low view of humanity. I was conditioned by that view: man being wicked, corrupted, totally depraved. It created a theological spectrum of “worm theology” – the belief that you are no one and nothing, and you had better hope that God has mercy on you. Even after receiving salvation, many Christians still don’t believe who they truly are. They still believe they need to be humble and think poorly of themselves, giving them a diminished view of being sons and Christians, less than what God intended us to have.
The value of the soul
If our heart is deceitful, desperately wicked, and beyond cure, then what hope is there for us? It fosters the mindset of always being a sinner “saved by grace.” It’s a bit like the story of Winnie the Pooh and Eeyore, who always has this downbeat attitude: “Oh, I’m no good, and everything is going to be bad.” It creates that dynamic. This degrades the soul’s value and worth, leading to a belief that you can never really trust it.
When we first enter into a relationship where our spirit and soul are reconnected with the Holy Spirit, there’s a struggle between the soul and spirit. The soul is accustomed to dictating how we live based on what we believe, our upbringing, and our experiences, while the spirit brings us into the revelation of who we really are, revealing our true eternal nature. It draws us back to the fact that God has placed eternity in our hearts and wants to bring us into an amazing relationship, where we come home and return to Him.
That relationship is completely undermined by the degrading of the value of the soul. In the early church, especially within the Catholic tradition, this mindset led to self-persecution – people whipping themselves, kneeling on broken glass, and engaging in horrendous acts. Why did they think that way? Because they believed they were lesser than God intended. This view creates suspicion of the soul and devalues humanity. By degrading humanity, there’s a gospel message to sell: “We’re so bad, we need saving,” using the fear of punishment to sell that message.
Fearfully and wonderfully made
The reality is, God doesn’t view us as bad. He sees us through the lens of Jesus and who He made us to be – His sons. We’ve always been His sons; we’ve never not been His sons. But that’s not how I was taught to believe. I was taught to believe that I wasn’t good enough and never would be. And while we can’t be good enough in our own strength, when we become who we truly are, we begin to live out a whole different dynamic of sonship.
The Septuagint actually says the heart of man is deep beyond all things, and it is the man. The human heart is deep, multifaceted, and amazing, created in God’s image and likeness. Psalm 139 says we are fearfully and wonderfully made. God has a vast sum of amazing thoughts about us, and we need to learn those thoughts. Our minds need to be deconstructed from the negative things we might have believed, so we can know the truth of agreeing with God about who we really are.
Now, God is eternal. It may seem obvious to say, but it’s important to grasp and understand that we come from that eternal origin. He has always been, He is, and He will always be (Revelation 1:8). He is light (1 John 1:5), He is love (1 John 4:16), He is Spirit (John 4:24), and He is a consuming fire (Hebrews 12:29). If we meditate on these truths and other verses like them, they will open doorways for us to engage with who God is and to begin discovering who we are in that truth.
Meditation is something we need to learn and practice, focusing on these truths to open up revelation as we give ourselves time to rest in them. When we engage Him, we begin to know Him, and through that intimate relationship of beholding Him face to face, we start to understand who we are. Our identity is reflected back to us as we look at Him, revealing that we had our origin in Him.
A living sacrifice
I started by presenting myself as a living sacrifice in the Heavenly Tabernacle. As described in Hebrews, this is not the earthly tabernacle patterned after the heavenly, but the actual heavenly tabernacle designed for us to engage with God’s presence and experience Him. There are figurative elements that show as we progress and mature in our relationship with God, we come into a deeper understanding of Him and His mysteries.
In this process, I was led to engage as a living sacrifice. In other words, I surrendered and presented myself to my High Priest, Jesus, who, after the order of Melchizedek, would prepare me as that living sacrifice. I didn’t have to physically die—I had already died with Him. I had to recognize that my old identity had died, and I now live with Him, as He lives in me.
Mysteries of the Ark
As I entered into deeper intimacy, I also began to engage with the heavenly realms. In the Holy of Holies is the Ark of God’s Presence. Within the mysteries of the Ark, I began to uncover aspects of my identity and destiny. Figuratively, the items within the Ark—the tablets of stone, the manna, and Aaron’s rod that budded—have symbolic meanings. For me, these represented my desire to know my daily mandate, seeking God’s guidance on what was written for me to embrace, how His provision (manna) would help me fulfil it, and the authority (the rod) I had as a son to carry it out.
Every day, I would go to God and ask, “What’s my mandate for today? What do You want me to do?” But this focus on tasks eventually became work-oriented. That’s when God began to draw me back into a place of first love, reminding me that relationship with Him was far more important than doing things for Him. Being with Him became the foundation for everything I would do with Him.
A living connection
My first experience of engaging in the Holy of Holies and the Ark was like the picture of the Ark of the Covenant with the mercy seat and two cherubim covering it. In the Old Testament, God’s presence would appear there once a year when the high priest entered the Holy of Holies to offer atonement for the nation’s sins. When I engaged the Ark, it felt as though one of the cherubim was missing.
Some have hypothesised about this. For me, it signified that the connection was meant for us, as sons, to step in and form that arc with God. In doing so, I became part of a living connection, an arc of energy and life where God’s presence would spark. This is a figurative way of understanding what I perceived.
There are theories that suggest Lucifer was once a covering cherub designed to reflect God’s glory to humanity so we could mature. When he left his place, it left a vacancy for us to step into sonship and make that arc of connection with God. But for me, it was about balancing relationship and responsibility. God reveals His heart, and then He releases His resources to show us our position and authority as sons.
The mysteries of the Dance Floor opened up new experiences for me, leading me deeper into intimacy and, eventually, into my governmental roles within sonship, after the order of Melchizedek. These were not linear experiences but concurrent ones that progressively unveiled truth.
Four faces
After God let me go from the initial embrace of first love, I re-engaged with the Ark, and that’s when I began to see the four faces of God within that connection. These faces were part of the arcing point where I could see into the deeper nature of who God is.
I had never seen the four faces of God before, as I had been focused solely on what was inside the Ark. When this mystery finally unveiled itself, I began to see the revolving faces of the eagle, the lion, the ox and the man. Over a period of about a year, I engaged with each of these faces, starting with the eagle, which seemed to resonate deeply with my identity. Then I moved on to the lion.
As I continued to behold these faces, I saw how they related to my identity, but in hindsight, I realized that I should have begun with the face of the man. This face represented my true identity as a priest in the order of Melchizedek, and had I started there, the process might have unfolded more smoothly. Instead, I initially approached it as a legislator, king, oracle, and then priest. However, the proper order should have been priest, king, oracle, and then legislator. If I had first understood my identity as a royal priest, I would have been able to embrace the fullness of my calling.
Priesthood, our first priority, comes from intimacy with the Father’s heart. It’s from that place of closeness that we outwork the responsibilities of our role. Eventually, once I connected with my priesthood identity, I was able to stand in the name of God—Yod He Vav He—and take up my place among the revolving faces of God. In doing so, I began to carry the power of His name and the frequency of Yod He Vav He, which literally caused me to vibrate with the energy of God’s presence. The name of God activated the “I AM” within me, igniting my role as a priest and helping me see through the eyes of the man.
As a priest, I started to view my life and the world from God’s heart, then transitioned into the lion’s perspective, recognizing my role as a king and understanding my heavenly authority in the royal priesthood. This authority, in turn, prepared me to be an oracle and a legislator on Earth, following the path of the ox and the eagle.
Heavenly perspective
All of this was part of the dance with God that unfolded over time. It took many years for me to reach this point. If, back in 2010, God had told me I was a priest in the order of Melchizedek or an oracle or legislator, I wouldn’t have understood. I would have lacked the heavenly perspective necessary to stand in His name and activate the power of my sonship within that name. But as I engaged with the four faces of God as a priest, I eventually found myself accessing the Eternal Now and discovering my origin there.
Looking back, had I started with priesthood, this process might have unfolded a year earlier. But God allowed me to work it out from where I was. He didn’t force me but led me into deeper illumination and truth. Over time, I found myself within the divine dance of love and intimacy—**perichoresis**—and my identity began to be revealed as my eternal origin within God.
It was only then that I realized I had existed before coming into this world. This was a profound revelation that required significant deconstruction of old mindsets. When I first began to discover first love and my creation within God, I saw the importance of surrendering my soul to the trust of the One who loves us unconditionally.
This process of surrender happens at the level of intimacy we currently have with God, and He doesn’t expect us to go beyond what we are ready for. He meets us where we are but leads us deeper. For me, this culminated in what I call the “dark cloud experience,” which we’ll get to later in this series. Every day, I surrendered as a living sacrifice, asking God to do what He needed to prepare me for who I truly am.
Get out of the boat
In essence, we need to “get out of the boat”—the figurative boat of survival where we are protecting ourselves—and immerse ourselves in the vast ocean of God’s unconditional love. It’s only there, when we are no longer in control, that we can fully experience His love and trust Him completely.
So, get relaxed, get comfortable, and begin to focus on your breathing. Breathe in very, very slowly, hold that breath, and then begin to let that breath out. Breathe in, hold that breath, and breathe out. Breathe in and breathe out. As you’re breathing in, you’re breathing in the unconditional love of the Father. You’re breathing in unconditional love, and that unconditional love is filling you, touching every fibre of your being, flowing through you.
Be still and let God love you in that place. Stay there for a few moments.
You’re in a safe place, cocooned in God’s arms, in God’s love. From that place of safety, you can make the choice to surrender, to whatever level you can, by choosing to get out of the boat. Abandon yourself, surrender to God’s love, and sink into that vast ocean of unconditional love. You can make that choice. Picture yourself in a boat, floating on a vast ocean, and step out of the boat and sink into that love.
As you’re under the water, you can breathe. You’re breathing in love. You’re sinking deeper and deeper into love, experiencing restored First Love, deeper and deeper into love. Choose to let go of anything that comes to your mind—any thoughts, any negative thoughts, any wrong thoughts about yourself, any limitations that may come up, any objections that may come into your mind. Let them go, surrender them, and go deeper and deeper into the trust of God’s protection, God’s blessing, God’s provision around your life. Receive that blessing.
You’re in a safe place of peace and rest. God wants to meet you as Father in that place and unveil something deeper of who you are, of who He is. So, begin to fix your thoughts on seeing the Father face to face. Think about it, set the desire of your heart upon it. Think of the Father embracing you, hugging you. Let those thoughts fill your imagination, to create an image, a doorway. Picture that door in your spirit and choose to open the door. Your choice is an invitation to the Father to come, to hug you, to begin to breathe His breath of life into you, so you can receive the living words of His breath.
Breathe it in. Hear His words: “I love you, I love you, my son, my daughter, I love you.” Be open to hear some of the vast sum of His thoughts. Let them restore you to His original desire for you. Maybe you’ll resonate with them in your spirit—don’t try and figure it out. Be open for an infusion of His thoughts about you, of who you really are.
Now let the Father take you by the hand and lead you. Maybe He’ll lead you to the Garden of Your Heart, maybe He’ll lead you to the dance floor, entwine with you heart to heart, and dance with you into the light and into the Mysteries. As He dances with you, allow your spirit to draw from Him. Let your spirit resonate with that truth. Let the Mysteries be deposited within you—the truth of your identity, the mysteries of your destiny. Go wherever God takes you.
Maybe you can dance with the lover of your soul. Let Him romance you. Let Him sing the song of your life over you. Feel the rhythm, feel the frequency, feel the life as it activates your DNA, as it activates within you.
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A lot of our understanding of the Old Testament comes from what we’ve been taught from a very literal perspective. However, much of the Old Testament can also be figurative. There’s poetry, and all sorts of things which can have a deeper meaning for us. In Noah’s day, the flood is often referred to in terms of Jesus being the Saviour, and it’s illustrative of how God came and rescued those who were willing to get on the ark.
What we must be careful of is not taking this too literally, as it was written with a different understanding of God. They didn’t have the New Testament understanding of God, nor did they know God in the way Jesus revealed Him. Their perspective was through their own understanding at the time. When we look at it now, we see it doesn’t line up with the God that Jesus came to reveal. So it’s our understanding that needs adjusting, not the idea that God was ever like that. God didn’t destroy the world.
Figuratively as well as literally
Now, there are those who say, “Yes, but the world was totally corrupt, and there were no genetically pure people left other than Noah.” Illustratively, of course, God desires that nothing within us be contrary to His image, the image He created us in. Our lives are being transformed by the renewing of our minds so that we come into that correct image. You can view these things figuratively as well as literally.
When it comes to questions like Sodom and Gomorrah—who caused the fire and brimstone? Well, who causes earthquakes? God doesn’t cause them. Who causes many other things? These are often the result of the natural world being in tension, not yet restored, groaning and longing for the sons of God to be revealed.
Fire and brimstone
Now, when you look at fire and brimstone—fire is often seen as God’s consuming fire. But we tend to think God destroyed them with fire. Fire could also be seen as a purifying force, a purification of what Sodom and Gomorrah represented, rather than a literal destruction of two cities. Some people believe they’ve found Sodom and Gomorrah, pointing to tar pits in the Middle East.
Brimstone actually means “God’s presence”—it’s the word “sulfur.” Brimstone is mentioned in the Book of Revelation, and the word used is “Theon,” from “Theos,” meaning “God.” So, brimstone signifies the presence of God, and God’s presence is purifying. These stories can be seen in that light. I know God didn’t cause these events because He doesn’t pour down judgment on people in that way. However, He does judge things that operate against the truth and will bring fire and brimstone to anything in our lives that hinders us from knowing and experiencing the truth and His love. But He’s not destroying people—He’s destroying the obstacles in our way.
There are different ways to look at it. Ultimately, I believe that God is love, God is good, and what He intends for us is to know His goodness and love. A lot of the Old Testament stories are figurative, but they’re written in a way that often doesn’t differentiate clearly between sowing and reaping. If someone sowed something bad, they reaped the consequences, not from God, but as a result of their actions.
The one who accuses
So, who brings about the consequence? The one who accuses and then comes to execute that accusation. We sow, and we reap the accusations against us for what we’ve sown. You could say the enemy brought the fire. In the undifferentiated view of God, if something bad happened, they thought God must have done it. But it could have been the enemy bringing the consequences of their behaviour, as the enemy seeks to rob, kill, and destroy.
Jesus said the enemy comes to do just that. So, who brought fire and brimstone? The enemy. Who brought the flood? You could say the enemy, or you could say the Earth itself reacted to the violence and horror, as described in Genesis 6, where violence was continual. The Earth washed itself clean. There are different ways to view it.
God is good
What I do know is that God is love, God is good, and He doesn’t kill or punish anyone, even if the Old Testament seems to say otherwise. Jesus came to reveal the truth. He said, “You’ve heard it said, but I’m saying to you,” and “If you’ve seen me, you’ve seen the Father.” Jesus didn’t destroy anyone. He only wanted to gather them to Himself because that’s what love does.
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When I’m talking about the unconditional love of God, it’s my personal experience that God loves me unconditionally. That doesn’t mean things don’t go wrong. His love for me is His love for me as a person, and therefore, no matter what happens to me, or what I’ve done, or what’s been done to me, His love doesn’t change. But that doesn’t mean He can step in and change everything for everybody. We live in a world that is fallen, a world that is broken. It’s being restored, but it’s not yet fully restored, so things do go wrong.
I don’t have an answer, obviously, as to why some prayers seem to work, and some prayers don’t. We do things that we think are right, yet things don’t always work out. There’s no real answer to that. But when I have experienced God’s unconditional love—and it is an experience, not just a belief—I don’t believe in God’s unconditional love; I know His unconditional love through experience. God loves you as an individual, and that love is unconditional.
Difficult things happen
Unconditional love keeps no record of the past and wants to bless you for the future. In the context of free will, which God has given everyone, we live in a world where difficult things happen and people make choices. We live in a world that is not yet fully restored. When I look at sickness, disease or tragedies, whether they be earthquakes or other disasters, because I know God loves me in that way, and I have that face-to-face relationship with Him, it doesn’t cause me to doubt God. I realise that God can’t stop everything; otherwise, there would be no free choice, and therefore no love. You can’t love someone by force, and God doesn’t want us to be forced to love Him. He wants us to choose to love Him.
Unconditional love goes both ways, of course. In fact, love has to be unconditional, or it isn’t love. If God puts a condition on His love, then I’m earning a reward for my behaviour. If I put a condition on God, then I’m also only loving Him because He’s done something good for me. I love God inherently because He’s my Father; I’m in relationship with Him, I know His goodness, and I choose to love Him. But I also feel that love because I’ve felt His love for me, and He’s always been there for me, no matter what has happened in my life.
Where can we go?
When I find myself in a difficult situation, unsure of what to do or think, I go to God and ask Him to reveal what He wants to reveal to me. Sometimes He provides a direct answer to my questions, and sometimes He doesn’t. But I’ve learned to trust Him. When it comes to trusting God, I think of when Jesus said to His disciples, “Are you going to leave me?” I believe this was after He talked about “Eat my flesh and drink my blood” in John 6. And the disciples said, “Where can we go? You have the words of eternal life.” For me, it’s like that: there is no one else. There is no other option. I trust God, and I know God is good.
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There were lots of writings that the early church had that were destroyed by Constantine. So, Constantine, in the Nicaean Council in 325, got all of the writings and letters that had been written, that they were using to preach from, took them all to that Council, decided which ones were acceptable, and then burnt the rest. Then they selected from the remaining writings during the Council of Carthage in 385, determining what they considered acceptable, which later became what we now know as the Bible, τὰ βιβλία, a library of books and letters. I don’t believe that God made the choices; I believe they did.
In the original version, there were different numbers of books. For example, what Protestants now refer to as the Apocrypha included 11 additional books. Some of the books Jesus quoted from, like the Book of Jasher, the Book of Enoch, and the Book of Jubilees, were among those not included in the final selection. I believe there were several such books that were referenced but ultimately left out.
Now, why didn’t they include them? Why did they include certain other things? Well, there seemed to be a bartering going on, from what I can understand, that there was a “Well, I want this one, and I want—well, if you’re having that one, we’re not having this one.” It wasn’t an inspired selection, that God told them to put these books in and take those books out. The Ethiopian Bible has 84 books, I think, and that’s one of the oldest recognised Bibles. The Protestant took all of those others out. Even the original King James had the Apocrypha in it, and then they took it out.
So, which books were the books that were in the Carthage one? Well, more than the 66 books that are in the present one—that’s the Protestant version. I remember asking people, “Well, why are these books not in the Bible?” and they were like, “Well, they’re not inspired.” That’s just nonsense. That’s just an excuse for saying, ‘Well, we don’t want these books because…’
And some are letters or documents that were written that were too controversial or complicated for them to accept. Because remember, why were they making a Bible? Because people couldn’t read, generally. You know, probably like less than 10% of the population could read. So, someone had to read it. So, why were the letters read out in the church? Because most people couldn’t read. That’s why they read them out.
So, they weren’t producing a Bible so people could read it. They were producing a Bible so they could actually say, “This is what we are going to tell people,” and they can’t hear anymore. Because, essentially, then what happened was, “Well, we’ve got a Bible, we don’t need to hear God anymore. God doesn’t speak anymore. He’s spoken through the Bible.” That’s what happened primarily.
And then, because most of the Bibles, in the Roman aspect of things, were done in Latin, they were written in another language, which most people couldn’t read because they didn’t really speak Latin. It was a written language, but it wasn’t the common language of the early church. Greek was, but it became the Roman language. And who could read that? Priests. So then it became a priestly thing to tell people and mediate. So it became a mediatorial system to control people because people couldn’t read it for themselves.
So someone had to read it. Well, what are they going to read? They’re going to read the bits [they like]. And well, then, how do people know what it’s saying? Well, because they’re telling them what it’s saying. So then you’ve got doctrine and theology being set by the Pope, effectively, who is “God’s vicar on Earth,” who has the divine authority to say what’s right and wrong. Which, seemingly, for me, is the Holy Spirit’s job, to guide us into the truth and lead us into the truth.
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The traditional Evangelical view of the Bible as the inerrant and infallible word of God is problematic. The true “Word of God” is Jesus, the Living Word, and direct experience of God through the Holy Spirit takes precedence over scriptural interpretation.
Biblical passages often used to support legalistic or fear-based theology, including those about the “deceitful heart” and “missing the mark,” point to humanity’s lost identity in God rather than inherent wickedness or behavioural failures.
Redemption
Jesus’ sacrifice on the cross was not to appease an angry God but to restore humanity’s true identity as children of God. Redemption is not earned through religious practices but is a free gift received through recognizing our inherent union with Christ.
Religious Conditioning and Personal Experience
Religious indoctrination, particularly within Evangelicalism, parallels cult-like control through fear and guilt. Personal experience with God, guided by love and discernment, is preferable to blind acceptance of religious dogma and trusting external authorities (including charismatic figures and self-proclaimed prophets).
Nine Pillars
In my personal journey of deconstruction, I once viewed the world through a framework of nine “pillars,” primarily rooted in Evangelical doctrines but also influenced by cultural and scientific conditioning. The process of each pillar being challenged and ultimately dismantled led to a transformed mind, grounded in love and direct relationship with God.
The Role of Love
Prioritise direct relationship with God through the Holy Spirit over rigid adherence to scripture or religious systems. Love is the ultimate measuring stick for discerning truth and evaluating personal experiences. Actively seek God’s guidance in a process of ongoing deconstruction and renewal, leading to greater intimacy with God and a more accurate understanding of our true identity in Christ.
The Gardens of Lakah showed me how much God, who is Father, Son, and Spirit, loved me and desired a deeper relationship with me, restoring me to be part of a family. I didn’t really understand family, because my own experiences didn’t give me a full understanding of what family and relationship really were in my childhood. Now, as an adult with a family, I looked to my work and what I then discovered in that relationship, but I wasn’t always successful. The Father, however, desired to reveal to me my sonship identity within family – not independently, not just between me and God, but within the family of God. There was only so much I could handle at that stage, so God revealed the amount of truth I could bear, while mysteries that I couldn’t yet handle would be unveiled to me in the future.
That’s what happened in that dance-floor experience, similar to what Jesus said to his disciples in John 16:12: “I have many more things to say to you, but you cannot bear them at the present.” All of us have the Spirit of Truth within us, guiding us into all truth, but we may not always be able to handle that truth. Like in the famous film quote, “You can’t handle the truth,” I couldn’t handle it all at once. Some truths were unveiled gradually, allowing me to handle more and more until those truths deconstructed the lies I had believed. My experiences were progressive, often mysterious, but that’s okay – we don’t have to understand everything.
Segullah
God brought me into the Segullah relationship – a deep, treasured connection where He declares, “You are my treasured possession; you are the apple of my eye.” This was the revelation I received through these dance-floor encounters, showing me who God is and revealing my true identity and destiny as a son. I didn’t fully understand sonship initially, but through these dances with God in my heart – a place of intimacy and revelation – I became entwined with Him, moving deeper into union and unveiling who I really am. This slow, intimate dance, moving between light and darkness, wasn’t about fear, but about trust in the Lover of my soul, who was capturing my heart more and more.
The song “Behold, you have come over the hills upon the mountains, to me you will run, my beloved, you’ve captured my heart” perfectly captures what God did in the garden – He captured my heart. He desired this deeper intimacy, and I pursued more of Him. The romance of this relationship continued as we danced to the song of all songs, not one I heard with words, but one I felt – a frequency resonating with the truth of my origin in Him. This dance revealed my identity, my DNA as a son of God, and the very essence of who I am. Through this, I began to go beyond into the mystery of sonship – far beyond what I could imagine – but God danced me into it, and later I would resonate with what I’d experienced there.
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Darkness and light
Psalm 139:10 says, “Even there your right hand will lead me, and your right hand will take hold of me.” At first, I found it difficult to understand why there was darkness, but then I came across this verse. Jesus is at the right hand of the Father, symbolising where we sit in a position of authority beside the Father. He holds our left hand with His right, giving us authority and guiding us. He led me in the dance – I wasn’t leading, I was following Him.
When I felt overwhelmed, as if the darkness was too much, I remembered Psalm 139:11-12: “If I say, surely the darkness will overwhelm me, and the light around me will be night, even the darkness is not dark to You; the night is as bright as the day.” This isn’t about physical darkness, but about revelation and the illumination of truth. There were things not yet illuminated to me, mysteries I couldn’t comprehend. Even though everything is known to God, to me, many things were still unknown. Yet God prepared me, placing the frequency of those experiences within me so that the mysteries would eventually lead me into the light of revelation.
Psalm 139:13 is a passage I’ve meditated on a lot: “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.” The psalmist could declare this with confidence, but I struggled to say it because I viewed myself through the lens of my humanity and failures, rather than my sonship. But this was what God wanted to engage me in – the truth of who I am as His creation, even though I couldn’t fully accept it at first.
Psalm 139 continues: “Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.” This doesn’t mean we have a limited number of days, but that our ordained days as sons of God were written and belong to us in our sonship. It speaks of the eternal nature of who we are in God. God’s thoughts towards me, as it says in verse 17, are vast, beyond my ability to think for myself. But over time, He revealed them to me, helping me to see myself as He sees me.
So, I humbled myself under God’s mighty hand, accepting His view of who I am, rather than trying to validate myself through my own works. I was danced into the light of revelation and also into the darkness of mystery – those things I couldn’t yet comprehend with my mind, but which my spirit resonated with and was drawn to. Later, these mysteries were unveiled as I grew in understanding.
Activation
So, get relaxed. Begin to focus on your breathing. Breathe in very, very slowly, hold that breath, and then begin to let it out. As you’re breathing in, you’re breathing in the unconditional love of the Father. That unconditional love is filling you, touching every fibre of your being. It’s flowing through you.
Picture that door in your spirit and choose to open the door. Your choice is an invitation to the Father, for Him to come and hug you. Hear His words: “I love you. I love you, my son, my daughter. I love you.”
Hear some of the vast sum of His thoughts. Let them restore you to His original desire for you. Maybe you’ll resonate with them in your spirit. Be open to an infusion of His thoughts about you—of who you really are.
Now, let the Father take you by the hand and lead you. Maybe He’ll lead you to the dance floor, entwine with you heart to heart, and dance with you into the light and into the mysteries. As He dances with you, allow your spirit to draw from Him. Let your spirit resonate with that truth. Let even the mysteries be deposited within you—the truth of your identity, the mysteries of your destiny.
Go wherever God takes you. Maybe you can dance with the Lover of your soul. Let Him romance you. Let Him sing the song of your life over you. Feel the rhythm, feel the frequency, feel the life that it activates within you.
When it comes to engaging with God throughout my day, much of it is more of a state of being rather than actively going and doing something. I find myself face to face in the spirit realm with God, heart to heart, all the time. It’s a multi-dimensional way of living, where you’re not always consciously doing something with your soul or mind. However, that doesn’t mean you aren’t spiritually engaged constantly. My soul is quantumly entangled and connected, so at the core of my being, I’m always connected to Heaven and to God.
Sometimes this connection is a cognitive engagement where we talk and share. But more often, it’s just a heart-to-heart connection—what I call ‘cardiognosis’, or knowledge of the heart, where I’m in tune with Him. My spirit is engaged, and I benefit from the flow of life, energy, revelation and truth by simply being with Him, rather than by doing many things. I actively enjoy life here, whether I’m working outside, talking to people, or doing my daily tasks. I draw on the Spirit within me, without feeling the need to do something specific to connect with God.
Resting in God’s Presence
This way of being is never a religious chore; there’s nothing I ‘have’ to do. I enjoy being in that state of rest and peace, and I remain consciously sensitive to the Father’s presence or Jesus within me, no matter what I’m doing. Whether I’m gardening, working in my workshop, or out in the fresh air, I find joy in these activities because I know God loves them too. After all, God is a great gardener, and Jesus was a carpenter. Sometimes I feel inspired, and sometimes I just sense that they’re enjoying my company as I go about my day.
I don’t engage in a lot of religious practices; instead, I enjoy just being. I enjoy hanging out, chatting and taking walks. Even when doing something mundane, like you testing milk or other routine tasks, I can still feel that connection to God’s peace and rest. The religious system often tries to convince us that we’re not doing well enough, but the truth is, God’s love is unconditional. He doesn’t place conditions on His love; He wants us to know that we’re approved and affirmed just as we are.
God simply wants relationship
God doesn’t see anyone as more important than another. He loves us all equally, even though we each have different roles in life. From God’s perspective, we are all His children, and if we can truly grasp that, we can free ourselves from the pressure of trying to serve or please God out of obligation. Jesus only did what He saw the Father doing—there was no list of tasks. Instead, He was in constant relationship with the Father. This is what Jesus was describing in John 14 when He said, “Where I am, you may be also.” He was talking about an intimate relationship of rest.
Jesus invites all who are weary and burdened to come to Him for rest. The world and the religious system often push us towards stress, striving and worry about whether we’re doing enough. But God simply wants a relationship with us. He doesn’t want servants or slaves; He wants to share life with us, enjoying our common interests.
Thankful for God’s presence
I love sharing my life with God, sensing His joy in being with me, without feeling the need to do religious tasks. I encourage you to relax, enjoy life, and take moments throughout your day to centre yourself and refocus on that place of rest. I know that when you’re busy, you need to stay focused on what you’re doing. But every now and then, it helps to pause and be thankful for God’s presence. When I first started doing this, I set my watch to ping every hour, reminding me to refocus, be grateful, and acknowledge God’s presence with me.
This practice helped me to approach my work, not as something I ‘had’ to do, but as something I did with joy. If you are testing milk, you are serving others; I see it as a way of blessing people. Everything I do is done as before God, and that makes it a blessing. I don’t worry about whether I’m doing enough because I know God’s love is unconditional. If I did nothing, He would love me just the same, and if I were busy all day, He wouldn’t love me any more.
My identity comes from being in Him, not from what I do. No matter who you are or what you do, God sees you as He created you to be. He wants us to discover our true selves, freeing us from the sense of duty and religious obligation. God doesn’t want us to do things for Him; He wants us to do things with Him. Living in that place of rest, in partnership with God, is a completely different way of being.
[Mike was answering a question from a Patreon ‘Ask Mike’ tier supporter whose paid work involves testing milk].
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Come to that place where you start
to focus your thinking and your intention
on engaging with the Father,
engaging Jesus,
engaging unconditional love.
It might help to slow your breathing down.
Begin to relax.
Start thinking and focusing on God, who is love.
Breathe in deeply the unconditional love of the Father.
As you breathe in slowly,
as you open up your heart,
open up your mind,
open up your whole being,
let unconditional love flow over you.
Let it rest on you.
Be saturated in it, and let it flow through you.
Let it penetrate.
Let it be absorbed into you.
Be still.
Be still and let God love on you.
Let Him reveal that truth to you:
Love, unconditional love,
touching your heart
touching your mind,
every part of your soul.
Be still and truly know God as unconditional love.
Be still.
Hear God speak to you.
Be still and know that I am unconditional love.
Be still and know that I am unconditional love.
Let those words sink in.
Be still and know that I am unconditional love.
Be still and know that I am abundant joy.
Be still and know that I am abundant joy.
Be still and know that I am overwhelming peace.
Be still and know that I am overwhelming peace.
Be still and know that
I am the way, the truth, and the life.
I am limitless grace,
and I am unconditional love
and triumphant mercy.
If you know that there are things in your past
that hold you back,
things that you still feel guilty over,
things that you still can’t forgive yourself for,
that you can’t let go,
just invite love, joy and peace to fill you,
to flow over you,
to flow in you,
and touch every particle of your being
with unconditional love.
And as that love fills you,
it can’t be contained within you.
Let it flow out of you like rivers of living water,
creating an atmosphere to live in of rest,
that you can bring that rest to others,
that you can bring that joy and peace to others.
Feel the unconditional love
flow through your whole being.
Be still.
Be still.
Let God’s love now touch you,
touch you in those areas
that it’s never touched before.
Heal you in those areas
that have never been healed before.
Free you in those areas
that have kept you in bondage to works.
You’re in a safe place.
Heaven is open.
The Father desires
that you would enter into His very heart.
Come face to face in love.
Find that place of restored innocence
in the realm of light.
Bathe in the radiance
of the light that’s coming from Him,
from His face:
the light of love,
the light of truth.
Let that go into deeper levels of your very being.
Don’t hold back through fear.
Let go.
Trust.
Trust in God’s goodness,
trust in God’s mercy.
That you can just live loved,
free from guilt,
free from shame,
free from condemnation.
All your old rags,
your dirty rags of your own self-righteousness,
let it go.
Let Him put new clothes on you,
the new ring of sonship on you.
Just as the prodigal came.
The father didn’t look at what he’d done.
The father celebrated his return
and rejoiced, to celebrate
that that which was lost has been found.
Let your identity be restored
so you can live in that place of love.
Then you can love living,
enjoy the joy of life.
Live loving: be merciful,
choosing to forgive and release all things.
Rest in love, joy and peace.
Wait in that place.
Be open to go deeper and deeper
and deeper into love.
If you struggle to believe,
let Him impart to you right now His faith,
His faith to believe who you truly are,
to believe the vast sum of His thoughts about you,
to believe that you are the apple of His eye,
the treasure of His heart.
You are precious, precious to Him.
You are uniquely, wonderfully made.
You are special.
Let that truth be imparted to your hearts right now.
Let Him give you the ability to receive it
freely, without cost.
Embrace the reality.
Receive all that you need
because He has an abundance,
exceedingly, abundantly
beyond all you ask or think or even dream.
Let Him expand your conscious reality to go beyond,
into the lavishness and abundance
of His unconditional love,
limitless grace,
and triumphant mercy.
If you are in that place, just rest there.
Stay there as long as you want.
You can’t exhaust the depths of it.
There are always deeper places to go into God’s love.
00:00 Focus
01:19 Be still
04:51 Let God’s love
09:10 If you struggle
10:36 Expand your reality
13:20 Stay
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Mike explores the various ways angels assist us in our daily lives. From facilitating meaningful connections with others to providing support in everyday tasks, Mike shares personal anecdotes that illustrate the divine guidance we can receive. He delves into the concept of judging angels and emphasises the importance of cooperating with them to fulfil our eternal purpose.
Angels: Helping in Everyday Life
How do angels assist us? Well, they do so in various ways. Sometimes, they help us connect with people, facilitating seemingly coincidental meetings. There are moments when angels can communicate and help orchestrate these encounters. For instance, I’ve personally asked my angel to help me find a parking space. I imagine that the angel goes ahead and stands in the spot, and for some reason, no one else sees it or takes it. When I get there, there’s a space waiting, and I always thank my angels for their assistance.
This leads me to the concept of “judging angels,” which some people misunderstand. They think it means deciding whether certain angels are bad and should be punished, but in reality, judgment is simply a verdict. When angels do something for us, saying “well done” and thanking them is a form of judgment. It helps build a relationship with them. Angels aren’t our slaves; they’re here to work with us in fulfilling God’s purposes.
Engaging with Angels in Spiritual Realms
I’ve had personal experiences with heavenly angels. For a long time, I didn’t realise I had an angel assigned to my mountain and throne, spiritually speaking. We’re all seated in Christ in heavenly places, but it took me a while to truly engage with this reality. When I finally did, I discovered that I could sit on the throne, learning about ruling and decreeing from my heavenly position.
During an activation exercise, where I guided people to connect with their thrones and mountains, I noticed a large angel standing behind my own throne. It was the first time I’d truly seen this angel, even though it had always been there. When I asked what it did, the angel responded, “What do you want me to do? I’m here to help you.” This angel had been helping me all along, even though I hadn’t been consciously aware of its presence.
Angels and other heavenly beings
Angels often help us grow and mature, and my angel has been instrumental in that process. Particularly in my younger years, it guided me towards books and revelations that challenged and transformed my understanding of God. These revelations set me on a path of growth and change, often accelerating my spiritual journey. As I matured, I learned to engage these cycles of change myself, needing less direct involvement from angels.
But it’s important to note that angels aren’t just there for the early stages of our journey. I’ve worked with other heavenly beings, like Wisdom and Prudence, who’ve shown me more about how heaven operates. They’ve taken me to heavenly courts and assemblies, revealing how the government of heaven functions. In the beginning, angels helped me navigate these spiritual realms, but as I’ve grown in my relationship with the Father, I now receive revelations directly, through heart-to-heart connection with Him.
In my journey, angels have been incredibly helpful, guiding and supporting me as I’ve grown in understanding and maturity.
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