For me, I would only ever want to create something that came out of the Father’s desire, out of His heart. So I am co-creating—I am not creating independently. I am always going to be engaged with the Father’s heart. Now, if I am talking about something that is around my own life or environment, and I want my intention to be blessed or favoured, then I am simply outworking the Father’s heart as He has revealed it to me. I can choose the realities that form around my life through intention, forming the life that I live from that place of rest.
But if it is something beyond myself—something creative, something not about my own life—then I will engage the Father. And there is a process. I think I have taught on this process before, but the process is to engage in what I call the cradle of life. That is the place where the heart of God reveals to your heart His desires, and you come into agreement with them. It is a brooding place, where you become pregnant with His desire. And through that brooding and meditating and simply being in His heart, you begin to resonate with His thinking and His desires. And when you are in agreement with that—when you are in harmony—you become the voice that speaks that desire into being.
From there, you engage that voice, like the sound of many waters—the voice of God. You become His voice. That leads into the chamber of creation, which you can come to through various stages. And in that place, when you speak, light responds, and creation happens. Now, I am describing a process, but that process eventually becomes a state of being.
So for example, when I created some guardian beings—I did not consciously go through all of those stages like: I am going to do this, then this. It is just where I live. I was in the Council of Guardians and they asked, “Will you create some guardians?” I was a bit taken aback. I had never heard another being ask me to create more of them before. So I went to the Father to check it out. I asked, “Do I have permission to do this? Is this Your heart?” And the Father was like, “Well, of course it is. They are a Council of Guardians. They are not going to tell you anything that is not aligned with My heart.”
So I was learning. And then I asked, “Well, how do I do it?” And He just said, “You know how to do it. It is the same way you do everything—by intention.” So with that, I realised I already had the Father’s heart. I had chosen to come into agreement with it. I did not need to go and sit again in the cradle of life to find out what He thought. His thoughts had already come to me—through the Guardians, essentially.
So I went back to the Council and, by intention, I released that intention to create, and creation formed. Light responded to my desire.
Now I did ask the Father, “Why are there not enough guardians?” There was something in me thinking, “Did You not create enough in the first place?” I did not voice that out loud, but it was in my thoughts. And He said—because He knew what I was thinking—“We have left many things undone and incomplete for you, our sons, to complete.” That is the co-creating we are invited into. There are things that They—the Father, Son and Spirit—have deliberately left for us to fulfil, to complete, to bring into being.
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Buddhism is more a philosophy of life than a religion, really—because essentially, they are not worshipping Buddha. They know Buddha died. It is a teaching philosophy, and actually, it contains a lot of similar teaching to Jesus: love one another, the golden rule, treat people the way you want to be treated.
I was in Cambodia, Vietnam and Thailand in March (2025), and I found it very interesting looking at the Buddhist temples, the philosophy, the culture—looking at how they did things and why they did them. I was not approaching it negatively. I did not go over there with an agenda. I was simply interested: what was this really about?
Seeing truth as truth
Now obviously, Jesus is not at the centre of it. But that does not mean there is no truth contained within it. In terms of meditation—how you focus, how you come to a place of rest—using music, using certain sounds or frequencies, those things can be helpful. But we are not applying Buddhist philosophy as Buddhists. We are seeing truth as truth, and applying that truth as it comes from Jesus through Jesus—not through a Buddhist principle or system. That is the difference.
And I know people will say, “Ah, yes, but if the root of it is evil, then you cannot use it.” But who says the root is evil? Why would it not be possible that Jesus, who is the Truth, might deposit truth in all sorts of places—so people could discover it and ultimately discover Him? There is even a story in Hinduism of a god who was crucified and wore a crown of thorns. Where did that come from? Well, I believe Jesus deposited something there—so that when people in that context later heard the story of His crucifixion, they might be drawn toward Him.
What we are doing is engaging with Jesus, the Truth. We are not embracing the whole of any other philosophy. If there is music that helps us focus or rest, we are engaging it with our own intention. Our use of it can cleanse it. We are choosing it for our good.
Eat the meat
This is not unlike the situation Paul addressed regarding meat sacrificed to idols. Some believers were afraid of being polluted by it. But Paul said, “The idols are nothing—they are just stone and wood.” Maybe there was something demonic behind them—but the meat itself? It was just meat. If you ate the meat, you were not worshipping a false god. You were just eating food. And Paul was trying to help them see—there was no power in it unless you gave it power. If you thought it was wrong and went against your conscience, then it became a problem for you. But the thing itself had no power unless you empowered it.
So Paul was saying, in effect: do not be in bondage to these things. If you want to eat the meat, eat it. If you do not, then do not. But either way, it is not going to harm you—unless you give it that power. The same principle applies to things like frequencies, sound bowls, music, intention. There is a lot of excellent Christian material out there too—music that has embedded intention, that carries a frequency of truth and peace and love.
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Positive intention
I do not really listen to music that way myself, but I know Samuel—who is part of our ministry—writes and composes music with positive intention built in. That is what we often use for activations and meditations. And I know those are good, life-giving pieces of music. So if you are in any doubt, use something you know has come from a good source. If you are concerned, that is the safest thing to do.
But I do not necessarily believe you need to be concerned. Someone might say, “But what if the composer of the music intended something negative?” Well, yes, they might have—but that does not mean you will be affected by it, because you carry a higher truth. You can choose to cleanse something. You can choose a different intention. If the embedded goal of that music was negative, you do not have to receive that. But I would say this: if you are not in a place to know how to handle that—do not listen to it. Do not go there. Choose something else that you know is safe. Find some Christian music you trust. Use what you know carries positive intention. Because for those who are mature, these things may not affect you. But if you feel vulnerable, then avoid it—because your belief about it could actually empower it to affect you negatively.
So it comes down to what you believe. That is the key.
Would I buy into the whole of Buddhist philosophy? No. Because I do not believe in reincarnation. I do not believe we come back in another body to have another go. I believe we get one life—and we should make the most of it. And that life continues beyond death. In fact, I do not believe we even have to die—but that is another topic.
So we just need to take a view of everything through Jesus the Truth. That is our plumb line. Does it carry the right frequency? That is how I always check. Does it carry the frequency of love? If it does, then I know that God is love—and that will be aligned with Him. Whatever the source, if it resonates with God, I do not have a problem with it.
Because truth is truth. Love is love. Not eros or emotional love—but real agape, God love. That is the measure we use to discern what is good, and what is not.
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Wait expectantly
I got through November, December and January—but I was in a bad way emotionally. Then came February, and all I felt was: wait expectantly. This was the dark cloud again, but now with the sense that hope would return. Still, I was frustrated. Why wait? What for? When would something actually happen? I sensed—not in words, but inwardly—that I should fast for 20 or 21 days, and then breakthrough would come. That gave me something to hold on to, a flicker of hope.
So I started fasting. Eight days in, I poisoned myself with contaminated water. I had not cleaned out the water cooler properly. For five days after that, I could not even keep water down. I had already gone over a week without food, and now no sleep, no hydration. I was delirious. Physically, emotionally, I was running on empty. I did not do what I would advise anyone else to do. I did not call the elders; I did not ask for prayer; I did not go to the doctor. I just let it happen. I suppose I embraced it, though I did not really know why.
My soul had had enough by that point. I said to God, “I surrender”—just to make it stop. I did not mean it, and it did not stop; it intensified. For another two weeks or more, I was at the absolute end of myself. My soul gave up. It stopped asking. I had no more questions. I could finally be still—because I had no strength to be anything else. I could wait, I could rest, because I could do nothing else. I could not even think.
It was my ‘Garden of Gethsemane’, in a way. Every part of me—body, soul, mind, emotions, will—was spent. I got the faintest glimpse of what Jesus must have endured, though his was infinitely greater. He took on the lost identity of all of us. Every dark cloud, every wound, every bit of brokenness. He carried it all. That is how deep his love goes.
God reminded me of some scriptures—Psalm 22: “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” It felt like that. I was groaning and crying out, and God seemed miles away. But then, verse 24 says that he did not despise the suffering or hide his face. He heard. He heard me. He just knew I had to come to the end of myself.
Psalm 42 was another. “Why are you in despair, O my soul?” That was exactly how I felt—mentally exhausted, unable to focus, even to pray in tongues. I stopped trying. Emotionally I was wrecked. I started accusing God, and I received accusations—from myself, from the enemy. I felt I was a failure in every area: husband, father, leader, person. And I believed every word of it.
But God was using this. He was preparing me for what was ahead—for the criticism, the trolling, the accusations that would come. Nothing people might say could ever be worse than what I had already said to myself. Colossians 1:24 came to mind—Paul talks about rejoicing in his sufferings and filling up what is lacking in Christ’s afflictions. Not adding to them, because we cannot—but joining in that unselfish love that undergirds all true ministry.
That is what God was working in me: love, joy and peace that does not come from anything external, but only from him. And I had not fully surrendered, so I was still going through it. But even that was his mercy, drawing me deeper into his love.
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Rejoice – Again I say, rejoice!
Rejoice in the Lord always—again I say, rejoice. (Philippians 4:4).
It felt like I might just be getting there. I had no strength to give thanks, but something began to rise in me—not from my soul, but from my spirit. Hope started to return. 1 Peter 4:13 says, “To the degree that you share the sufferings of Christ, keep on rejoicing.” And something shifted. I began to rejoice. My attitude changed. Joy became strength.
And then came the shaking. Hebrews 12 talks about removing the things that can be shaken so only what cannot be shaken remains. That consuming fire—God’s presence—was burning everything up. And I chose to offer myself. I surrendered, even though I was burning inside and out. The fire of God’s love was testing what would remain. That was when I burned my ketubah—a contract I had written with 68 demands, all good things: to fulfil destiny, sonship, purpose. But it was my contract with God, not his. As I burned it, I felt each item die. And I grieved, deeply. Waves of loss rolled over me.
And then came the question: “Do you still love me?” If nothing I desired came to pass, would I still love God? Would I trust him, still rejoice, still believe he is good? Yes. My soul had finally surrendered. He searched and tested my heart—not to punish, but to purify. The pure in heart see God. That is what he wanted: face-to-face relationship.
I surrendered control. I no longer needed to know anything, see anything. If he never showed me another thing, I did not care. Could God trust me? That was the real issue—not what I could do for him, or him for me—but relationship. When I surrendered, he told me he trusted me. If he never did another thing for me, I would still love him. And if I never did anything for him again, he would still love me.
Those four months had been four phases: garden, dance floor, soaking room, dark cloud—be still, wait, rest, wait expectantly. They all turned out to be invitations by grace, but my soul had turned them into duties, burdens, performance. Until finally, I surrendered even my obedience. He freed me from needing to earn identity through duty. I saw that my redemptive gift is not what I do, but who I am.
And was it all worth it—just for relationship? Absolutely. It brought me to 2 Corinthians 7:16: I rejoice that in everything I have confidence in you. That night, when I surrendered completely and found joy, he separated and reintegrated my soul and spirit. I could never have done that myself—only he, the living Word, could. Everything changed. My soul and spirit became quantum entangled, re-joined from the inside out.
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The next day, I woke up totally restored. No symptoms. Physically and emotionally whole. I sat in my chair and re-engaged heaven. But now I was free—untethered. Not stepping in and out, but abiding. My spirit stayed in the heavenly realms. My soul no longer anchored me to the earth. I live in dual realms, connected, unified. Everything the Father wanted to show me became accessible. From that day, my spirit has never left that realm. My soul became a channel for heaven to touch earth. Joined to the Lord, one spirit. The gateway opened.
Looking back now, I can honestly say—I rejoice. I celebrate what the Father did in me. It was awesome. I am so deeply grateful. He loved me enough to take me through that fire, through that pressure, through the darkest cloud I had ever experienced—because he knew what was on the other side. He wanted me to be free. He wanted me to know the depth of his unconditional love. He wanted me to experience limitless grace, triumphant mercy—not just know about them, but live from them. And I do. That is where I live from now.
So now, I want to encourage you—just open your heart. Just be willing. Ask Jesus to take you wherever he wants you to go. Do not try to control the outcome, do not try to shape the experience. Just say, “Yes, I am willing.” Maybe he will take you into the dark cloud. Maybe it will be something completely different. But whatever it is, if he is leading, you can trust it. Trust him. You might not understand it at the time, I certainly did not—but he knows what he is doing. And if you are willing to say to him, “I choose to embrace this path of transformation,” then say it. Tell him. But do not try to make anything happen. Let him lead. Desire it, yes—but do not create the agenda. That was the biggest lesson for me: only he can initiate it, only he can take you through it.
And really, that is where this whole series began—right back at the beginning: to experience first love, we have to abandon our soul into the trust of the God who loves us unconditionally. That is what he wanted me to get to. That was my journey. That was how I got out of the boat. And we all need to get out of that boat. The boat of survival. The boat where we think we are in control, where we try to make everything safe and understandable. We have to get out of that boat, and sink into the vast, endless ocean of unconditional love.
Because only there—only in that place of absolute surrender, trust and intimacy—can we truly experience what it means to walk with God, to know him, to be known by him. That is what he is after. That is what this whole thing is about. It is not about doing anything for him. It is not about fulfilling a calling, or achieving anything at all. It is about being with him, loving him, and letting him love us. That is the invitation. That is the transformation. That is first love.
Activation (full version).
I encourage you just to close your eyes. Get relaxed. You may want to lie down. You can relax your body.
You may want to start by focusing on your breathing— breathe in slowly… hold it… and then breathe out slowly.
And as you are breathing in and breathing out, begin to focus your thinking on God the Father—who is love.
As you begin to breathe in, you are breathing in unconditional love— the love of the Father for you as a son, as a daughter, as a child.
Breathe it in. And as you breathe it in, that unconditional love begins to flow through your whole being— touching every cell of your body, your mind, your emotions, the whole of your soul, spirit and body.
Be still… and let God love on you. Let Him show you how much He loves you.
As His love fills you, let joy and peace come—overwhelm you, cocoon you. All of His being begins to flow in you. An atmosphere forms around you— a cocoon of love, joy and peace that you are simply resting in… relaxing in…
Be still. Wait. Just rest. Wait expectantly.
Whatever God wants to do with you right now— this is a safe place.
You can get out of that boat—figuratively. You can choose to abandon yourself— to sink into that vast ocean of unconditional love— where God’s love is so strong, so powerful, that you can trust Him.
He is a good God. He wants the best for you.
Just go deeper and deeper into that love, as He restores that first love to you.
You can sink deeper… and deeper.
There may be things around you that you sense or feel. Be willing to go deeper into that love.
You can stay in that place.
Maybe you want to get closer and more intimate with the Father— face to face with His presence.
You can fix your thoughts. Jesus wants to reveal the Father to you. The Holy Spirit wants to reveal Jesus to you. So they can reveal themselves to you— in intimacy.
Think about the Father meeting you. Fix your thoughts in your imagination. Picture a door in your spirit— and you can choose to open that door.
Invite the Father’s presence in— to hug you, to breathe His breath of life into you.
And as the Father embraces you in love, be open to wherever He wants to lead you— maybe to the soaking room, if that is where you are, maybe to the realms of heaven— where you can engage the judgment seat, or the altar of fire, or the river of fire.
Perhaps you want to take your scroll— to have it tested and purified by the consuming fire of His love.
Or maybe ask Him to take you into that dark cloud experience— if you are willing, if you feel the desires of your heart are set upon it.
Wherever the Father wants to lead you, just be willing to go— knowing that you can trust Him.
Because He loves you. He wants the best for you. He is a good God.
He wants you to truly know who He really is, so you can truly know who you really are— as a child of God.
Be open to wherever He takes you right now…
Feel free to stay in that place as long as you would like—a place of intimacy, a place of love, a place of rejoicing, where the joy and peace of God can just fill you and flood you.
During a dark cloud experience in worship in October 2011, the Father asked me if I would give Him four months. Now, I thought, wow—forty days was amazing—imagine what four months could do. He did not say a four-month fast (I think that might have been extreme, but I probably would have done it). Nevertheless, I was so excited. Of course I said yes to that invitation. I mean, it was like—wow—what was God going to do with me when I gave Him four months?
So I chose November 2011 to February 2012 for my four months. It was not a fast, but it was a time without journaling, without agenda—or so I thought. Well, I suppose I did: I wanted more. But He had an agenda. Wow. I was in for a shock, again, from that Jehovah-Sneaky. He tricked me into this—probably because He knew I might not accept if I knew what was going to happen. I do not know. But He got me into that place.
So—November the first, 2011. I got up, six in the morning, and I sat in my usual reclining chair, expecting something amazing to happen. Remember, I had had over a year of daily experiences and encounters in heaven, within my own spirit and soul—and now what happened? Nothing. Darkness. A blank, black screen. How confused I was! How shocked I was! How sad I was!
Now in hindsight, I can see what God was doing through those four months. Each month was a separate period. And I see He was taking me back to the garden, but I could not see it or experience it cognitively. He took me back to the dance floor. He took me to the soaking room, and into the dark cloud. But I could not see or feel anything—other than it was dark. Black. I could see nothing. I could hear nothing. It was horrible.
Be still
All I felt was, “Be still.” That was it. Be still. I had to be still. But I was so frustrated, confused, disappointed. My soul did not handle being still very well.
So there I am, November 2011, and God is taking me back into the garden so I could know God who is love. But that was tested, because I could not see it, and I could not feel it. All I had to do was be still. Psalm 46:10—“Be still and know that I am God.” That was the first verse I ever meditated on. I had meditated on that verse for years. And now God had asked me to be still, and I could not.
Another version of that verse says, “Step out of the traffic. Take a long, loving look at Me, your high God.” I could not see Him. It was like—how unfair is that? I had no problem being still until I was invited to be still—and my soul reacted to that darkness. I kicked off.
Now, there are other verses.
He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the Lord, ‘My refuge and my fortress, my God in whom I trust.’ (Psalm 91:1).
But I could not trust Him. In fact, I did not trust Him. God is love—but would I trust Him without seeing and knowing what He is doing? My soul failed that test miserably. I had to know what He was doing. I bombarded Him with questions. I needed to know. Why was He doing this to me? What was happening?
See, if I knew what He was doing, I felt secure—and I could trust Him. But I did not trust Him as much as I thought, obviously. My soul kicked off. I really needed to know. I had to know. And of course—God did not tell me. Which was so frustrating, and so annoying. And I got so angry with God, I said things to Him which I am not proud of now. Of course, He was smiling all along. I could not see Him, but He was smiling, because He knew what this process was going to do in me.
I remembered that God once said, “I do not need your assistance, just your surrender.” I remembered that—but I could not do it. My soul could not surrender. And I think I did not really know God’s unconditional love. I knew God is love. I knew God loved me. But actually, was it unconditional? I do not think my soul accepted that that was the truth.
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So—November was a miserable month. I went through a terrible struggle. I was hoping that December would be better. So—the first of December—I get up. I go back, I sit in my chair. Nothing again. Blank. All I felt was: “Wait.” Looking back, I can see that God was taking me on the dance floor. There would be joy. But I had to wait. Why did I need to wait? What was I waiting for? Isaiah 40:31—Those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength. Great. But I could not see what He was doing, so I could not wait. I wanted to know.
Another version says, “Those who wait for the Lord, who expect, look for, and hope for Him, shall change and renew their strength and power.” I think that is the Amplified version. Nehemiah 8:10 says “The joy of the Lord is your strength.” So God wanted me to experience joy based on nothing other than Him. So I was waiting. Do nothing, see nothing, know nothing. That was not joy. I did not feel joyful, or blissful, or any other description of joy. I was miserable.
Could joy come from no external circumstances, only from my relationship with the Lord? Well obviously, yes. I discovered that in the end. But while I was going through it? Absolutely not. I felt no joy at all. I was miserable. Even Christmas was horrible that year, because inside I was in turmoil. I was so struggling with what was happening to me. It felt so unfair that God had made me this way—and now I could not be me. That is how it felt.
So—why do I have to wait? What am I waiting for? Why are You making me wait? Who am I waiting for? My soul was absolutely, totally out of control. And I believe the Father was showing me what I would be like without my spirit’s influence. Because when I came into relationship with God, and when the Holy Spirit was alive in me, and when revelation came, and when I was baptised in the Spirit, and filled with the Spirit, and all these amazing things—I had wonderful experiences of God. And it was great.
But now God was showing me what I was like on my own, following my own path, in my soul. Needing to know what God was doing, to even have a hope of joy. So why would I have to wait? It was so hard.
Rest
Then January came. The first of January. I was hoping—hoping—that this would be a new year and something would change. And all I felt was: rest. Rest. I could not rest. I was now in the soaking room. Rest. Peace. God wanted me to come into peace. I could not feel peaceful. I was anything but peaceful. I was riled. My emotions were high. My soul was in turmoil.
Matthew 11:28—“Come to me, all who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” Well—I was weary and heavy laden at this point. I really felt my soul was carrying this weight of producing my own identity from what I was doing. “Take my yoke upon you and learn from me; I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.” I did not find rest for my soul. I could not enter rest.
I had been at rest for a whole year. Wonderfully at rest. He had taught me from that scripture. He opened it up so I could know what it was to come into rest. And now He invited me to rest—and I could not rest. Do nothing, see nothing, know nothing, be nothing. More frustration.
I could not do it. I could not rest. Which was the point. Because He was basically saying, you do not have to try to create rest. You come to Me. Being gentle and humble in heart is true peace, where identity and destiny are accepted and surrendered for God’s glory. But I could not do it.
So was I willing to take the yoke of Jesus, even when it made no sense? When I did not understand? When I could not figure it out? When I did not know what God was doing? Could I do it? No. I could not. Absolutely no way. So would I follow His lead and be His disciple in pure trust? Which is exactly what He wanted me to do. But I could not. Not at that point. I could not do it.
Why do I need to rest? What am I resting for? What are You doing, making me rest? Who am I resting for? What is it all about? My soul just asked question upon question upon question. I could not be still. I could not wait. I could not rest. I was in turmoil—continually. I was asking those questions—but really they were accusations. I was accusing God. What are You doing? Why are You doing this to me? It is unfair. I have done nothing to deserve this. I do not like it.
But—I got through November, December and January. I got through it. But I was pretty bad—emotionally. And then I got to February. And all I felt was: wait expectantly. Now—I was going to go into the dark cloud. Now—hope would return.
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Activation (excerpt)
I encourage you to just close your eyes. Get relaxed.
You may want to lie down. You can relax your body.
Begin by focusing on your breathing. Breathe in slowly… and hold it… Then breathe it out… slowly.
And as you breathe in… and breathe out… Start to focus your thinking on God the Father, who is love.
As you begin to breathe in, You are breathing in unconditional love— The love of the Father for you, As a son, As a daughter, As His child.
Breathe it in.
As you do, that unconditional love begins to flow Through your whole being— Touching every cell of your body, Your mind, Your emotions, The whole of your soul, spirit, and body.
Let yourself be still, And let God love on you. Let Him show you how much He loves you.
As His love fills you, Joy and peace come— They overwhelm you, They cocoon you.
All of His being begins to flow in you. An atmosphere forms around you— A cocoon of love, joy, and peace.
You are just resting in it. Relaxing in it.
Be still. Wait. Rest. Wait expectantly.
Whatever God wants to do with you—right now— This is a safe place.
You can get out of the boat—figuratively. You can choose to abandon yourself, To sink into that vast ocean of unconditional love, Where God’s love is so strong, so powerful— You can trust Him.
He is a good God, And He wants the best for you.
Just go deeper and deeper into that love As He restores first love to you.
You can sink deeper… And deeper…
There may be things around you that you sense or feel. Be willing to go deeper and deeper… Into love.
God does not want to keep us at a distance. He wants us to be safe and secure in His presence—but that requires transformation.
Of course, Jesus wanted to share many things with His disciples, just as the Father desires to reveal amazing things to us. But we may not yet be ready to experience them. In John 16:12, Jesus said, “I have many more things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now.” That was certainly true for me. God wanted to reveal so much, and eventually He did, but at the time I simply could not bear it.
There is revelation, truth, and encounter available to us—but, like the disciples, we may not be ready. It is not because we are unworthy or not good enough, but because our minds need renewing. There are still things in our souls that need to be dealt with so that we learn to trust God—not based on what we see or understand—but simply because He is God. Our relationship with Him must be based on who He is, not on what He does for us, nor on what we do for Him.
Visiting or Dwelling?
God prepares us to dwell with Him in face-to-face intimacy—not just to visit from time to time. At one stage, I was visiting His presence. I was engaging with the realms of heaven, but I was not able to engage with His person—at least, not until I had been through this process.
My encounters in the dark cloud were preparing me for what was to come, though I was completely unaware of that at the time. I did not know what He was doing, or what He was going to do. I thought I had experienced everything there was to experience—how wrong I was!
Once, during one of those dark cloud encounters, I saw my destiny scroll. There was an event marked on it by a blue flame. The Father called it the eternal flame. I was deeply curious—why was I being shown this? At the time, I had no idea it would relate to what I was about to walk through. I saw my life flash before me, leading up to that moment within the flame. I just knew that nothing would ever be the same again. But I did not know what it meant, or how it would unfold. God was showing me something important, something intriguing—an invitation. And, as I sometimes say, Jehovah Sneaky knew I would not be able to resist.
He did not tell me what He was going to do—He simply invited me to engage the eternal flame for a life-changing experience. A friend of mine later painted a picture of someone in a blue flame. When I saw it, it resonated so strongly—it felt as though she had painted me, right there in the midst of that flame that had changed my life.
True Identity and Redemptive Gifts
As part of that process, the Father wanted to reveal my true identity to me—an identity closely linked to my redemptive gift. That redemptive gift is how the Father has wired me, as a son, to engage with the world around me and to mature into His fullness. It is how I see, perceive, and interact with life.
My true identity is connected to my redemptive gift, but it needed to be freed from the performance-based, soul-driven tendencies that had developed through my life experiences. Trauma, nurture, and upbringing can all shape how that gift functions—often making it impure.
In my case, I was using my redemptive gift to create and validate my identity. My redemptive gift is prophet–teacher. That is not the same as the spiritual gift of prophecy. This kind of “prophet” describes how I perceive and process the world. And I am almost equally prophet and teacher—every redemptive gift survey I have done reflects that. That is how God wired me to function as a son: curious about how things work, with the ability to explain them to others. That is probably why He chose me to be a forerunner in heavenly engagement—to open up that realm for others. Hopefully I can share my experiences in a way that is not too weird, so that people can see what is available to them too.
But I had gained my identity and security from the knowledge I received by doing that. I was using my soul to engage heaven—to see and know what the Father was doing, which in itself is good. But my soul would not allow my spirit to engage heaven on its own. Though we are seated in heavenly places, the consciousness of my soul was limiting my spirit’s ability to dwell and remain there. I was tethered to myself, and to the earth.
The Surrender of Self
So the essence of who I was, redemptively, was being used to create a false identity—and to bring me security and independence from my spirit. What I discovered was that me, myself, and I had to surrender. My soul and spirit had to be separated so that they could be reintegrated into oneness—spirit, soul, and body—joined and one with God. From His perspective, we are already one with Him.
As it says in 1 Corinthians 6:17,19-20: “But the one who joins himself to the Lord is one spirit with Him. Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own? For you have been bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body.”
This is what God desires: union so complete that we are one. But I could not experience that union—because my soul would not allow it. In my own understanding, I was alienated.
The Mirror Bible puts it beautifully: “In our union with Him, we are one spirit with the Lord. Do you not realise that your body, by design, is the sacred shrine of the Spirit of God echoing within you? You are not the sole owner of your life—you are bought and paid for. All of you is His. Live your life conscious of how irreplaceably priceless you are. You host God in your skin.”
Gifted by Design, Not Performance
God wants to free us from the need for our soul to find identity in works—what the Bible calls the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, the path most of the world is on.
The purity of who we are redemptively must be tested and refined by fire. I believe our redemptive gifts will grow beyond just one or two, eventually reflecting all seven—to become more like Jesus. As the fruit of the Spirit matures in us, we will function more fully as sons—engaging not just in one way, but in every way.
The redemptive gifts listed in Romans 12:6–8 are prophet, servant, teacher, exhorter, giver, ruler, and mercy. These are not spiritual gifts for ministry. They are who we are. We are God’s gift to the world. The refining process reveals those gifts and frees us from the need to earn our identity through our own works. We can finally be who God intended—no longer performance-driven, trying to earn His favour.
That testing will look different for each of us. When I first studied redemptive gifts—through the teaching of Arthur Burk—I began to see how God uses testing to purify each one. When I taught on the ketubah in church, I warned people: If you go down this road, you will be tested.
I knew ruler-gift and servant-gift friends who had their ability to rule or serve removed—just like that. Then they had to face the question: Who am I without that? Who was I, without being able to see, understand, and teach?God was trying to show me: I am not who I am because of what I do, but because of who He made me to be. Even if I never did any of those things again, I would still be who I am.
A Restoration of Original Design
God took me through the dark cloud because He loves me.
He wanted to restore me to my original condition—so that I would know myself as He made me.
He wanted to bless me fully.
He wanted to reveal my heavenly identity and position as a son.
He wanted to release me into the fullness of sonship authority to engage creation.
But to do that, He had to do something quite drastic -it may be easier for you than it was for me.
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Activation: Resting in Unconditional Love
I encourage you to just close your eyes. Get relaxed.
You may want to lie down. You can relax your body.
Begin by focusing on your breathing. Breathe in slowly… and hold it… Then breathe it out… slowly.
And as you breathe in… and breathe out… Start to focus your thinking on God the Father, who is love.
As you begin to breathe in, You are breathing in unconditional love— The love of the Father for you, As a son, As a daughter, As His child.
Breathe it in.
As you do, that unconditional love begins to flow Through your whole being— Touching every cell of your body, Your mind, Your emotions, The whole of your soul, spirit, and body.
Let yourself be still, And let God love on you. Let Him show you how much He loves you.
As His love fills you, Joy and peace come— They overwhelm you, They cocoon you.
All of His being begins to flow in you. An atmosphere forms around you— A cocoon of love, joy, and peace.
You are just resting in it. Relaxing in it.
Be still. Wait. Rest. Wait expectantly.
Whatever God wants to do with you—right now— This is a safe place.
You can get out of the boat—figuratively. You can choose to abandon yourself, To sink into that vast ocean of unconditional love, Where God’s love is so strong, so powerful— You can trust Him.
He is a good God, And He wants the best for you.
Just go deeper and deeper into that love As He restores first love to you.
You can sink deeper… And deeper…
There may be things around you that you sense or feel. Be willing to go deeper and deeper… Into love.
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Where do we get our value from? Where do we get our identity from?
What I discovered on this journey of restored first love and identity was that I had been getting my value, worth and identity from what I was doing. And therefore, if I was not doing those things, I struggled with how I felt about myself.
Lessons from Hebrew Marriage
We have been exploring the restoration of first love through the lens of the six aspects of Hebrew marriage found in the Old Testament. God revealed to Israel that He desired a marriage relationship with them. However, they failed to accept that invitation. Instead, they set up their own system of Hebrew marriage, based on what they believed God had done—but something was missing: relationship.
It became a relationship based on contract, not covenant.
We looked at:
The Garden (Lakah) – God drawing us into intimacy and revealing His love
The Dance Floor (Segullah) – where He entwines with us, revealing our identity and destiny
The Mikveh – the soaking room of preparation and transformation, where He prepares us to come into His presence
The Ketubah – the covenant of relationship (which, in my case, I initially misunderstood and approached from the soul)
The Kiddushin – the betrothal, the dark cloud of surrender
The Huppah – the bridal chamber, the consummation of deeper union
False Identity
I was on a journey to have my first love identity revealed, which meant my false soul identity had to be exposed. I did not know who I truly was, and therefore, I was operating in the power of the soul. The soaking room began that process; the dark cloud completed it.
Today, I want to talk about that dark cloud experience—what led to it, how it unfolded, and how it changed everything. The Father’s goal was intimacy and union—symbolised by marriage and consummation in the bridal chamber—which would lead to a face-to-face experience of God’s person, far beyond experiencing His presence.
Into the Dark Cloud
I reached a point on my journey where the soaking and fire of preparation were drawing me towards the bridal chamber—to that consummation, to deeper intimacy, truth and knowledge than I had ever imagined. But first came the dark cloud of separation and reintegration of soul and spirit, which brought about total surrender of the soul. That was, without doubt, one of the hardest things I have ever gone through in my life—but also the most beneficial.
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Exposing the Thoughts and Intentions
This transformation revealed the need for that separation and reintegration. It exposed the thoughts and intentions of my heart, which were so soulish that I was shocked by my own reactions when God tested me. But He did it for my good, knowing that it was the only way to bring me into my true identity and reveal His true nature to me.
It was incredibly hard. The motives of my heart were mixed. Some of my intentions were shaped by the programming of wrong religious belief systems. Those flawed intentions were exposed when I attempted to make a ketubah—a marriage contract—with God, instead of entering into the new covenant that had already been prepared for me to be included in. The whole process had been flawed from the beginning, and it brought to light the root of my soulish motivations.
The Father used those stages to help me see the false perspective of the soul, in contrast with my true identity—created in His image and likeness, as a son. The flaws in my thoughts and intentions became apparent when I tried to make demands of God—rather than surrendering to relationship and trusting Him.
Contract vs Covenant
That is the problem with a contract—it does not rest on trust. A contract says, “If you do this, I will do that.” These are your demands; these are mine. And if one party fails to meet those conditions, that is seen as marital unfaithfulness and could bring the relationship to an end—because it was never based on trust.
That is what I discovered. I might have claimed I trusted God, and believed I did, but the truth was my relationship with Him was not built on trust. It was built on reward: being rewarded for what I was doing and drawing my identity from my works for God.
Now, none of the things I was doing were wrong in themselves—but I was doing them from the wrong motivation. I was driven by a need for self-validation. I found that I could trust God only when I understood what He was doing. If I did not understand, I could not trust. I did not realise that until He revealed it to me—and when He did, it absolutely shocked me.
Some of my intentions were definitely performance-driven, not pure.
The Nature of the Dark Cloud
My dark cloud experience will be different from yours. You might not go through the same darkness and inability to see that I did. Others have shared different stories of how God brought them to deeper relationship. But I do believe we all must experience a separation and reintegration of soul and spirit.
We are all born into this world with our souls shaped from the outside in. Everything we learned about ourselves, the world and even God came through our physical senses. Our soul interpreted that data and built a worldview, a belief system, based on upbringing, experience and, often, religious or educational systems.
God wanted to bring me—and wants to bring each of us—into the bridal chamber for consummation, into a face-to-face encounter with the Father’s person. For that to happen, He must reorient our inner being so that our relationship is led by the spirit and not the soul. It must move from spirit to soul, not the other way round—so that we can be joined to the Lord and become one spirit with Him.
The Season of Preparation
After a period of soaking and fire around August 2011, in which I had some profound soaking room experiences, then between August and October 2011, in times of corporate worship, I began to experience what felt like a thick, dark cloud. I did not understand what it was. I was not afraid—but I was confused and disoriented. What was going on? Why was I having these experiences? What was happening? I asked a lot of questions.
Why Would God Hide?
So I began to look into it—what are dark clouds all about? I started exploring the significance of dark clouds in Scripture, and what I found was that God hides within a dark cloud to protect us from the intensity of His presence before we are fully prepared and ready to meet Him face to face.
This is not God keeping us away—this is God protecting us, but also preparing us. He draws us into His presence by leading us through a dark cloud of trust. The question becomes: will I trust Him enough to go through that dark cloud to enter into His presence—or will I back off, be afraid, and run from the experience?
Israel’s Encounter
In Deuteronomy 4:11, we read about Israel’s experience:
“You came forward and stood at the foot of the mountain. The mountain was burning with fire to the heart of the heavens—darkness, cloud and thick gloom.”
Of course they were afraid. They had spent 400 years in Egypt, in bondage, with little to no real relationship with God. And when they came out of that, they carried so much of Egypt with them—control, manipulation and fear. So, when God invited them up the mountain to meet Him, they were afraid. They drew back, and they failed to accept that invitation.
The Glory in the Cloud
In 2 Samuel 22:12, it says:
He made darkness canopies around Him, massive waters, thick clouds of the sky.
And in 1 Kings 8:10,
When the priests came out of the holy place, the cloud filled the house of the Lord, so that the priests could not stand to minister because of the cloud, for the glory of the Lord filled the house.
Now, when we think of the glory of the Lord, we usually think of light—but actually, God had to protect them from the fullness of His glory, from the intensity of His essence, from the blinding light of His presence. Solomon understood this. In verse 12, he said,
“The Lord has said that He would dwell in the thick darkness.”
So Solomon recognised that this thick cloud was not hiding God out of reluctance, but protecting the people. Even in that cloud, they could not stand—the weight of God’s presence was too great. But within that dark cloud, when God came to occupy the Holy of Holies, He was actually shielding them from the light of His presence—until Jesus came to reveal the light as the Light of the World, to reveal the true nature of God.
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Hidden in Mystery
Psalm 18:11 says, He made darkness His hiding place, His canopy around Him, darkness of waters, thick clouds.
The Passion Translation renders it this way:
Wrapped in thick cloud-darkness, His thunder-tabernacle surrounded Him. He hid Himself in mystery-darkness. The dense rain clouds were His garments.
This is an invitation. God is calling us into that mystery—to see whether we will trust Him. Are we willing to go through the dark cloud in order to encounter His person?
Psalm 97:2: Clouds and thick darkness surround Him; righteousness and justice are the foundation of His throne.
So why does God hide in a dark cloud? Because without it, He is unapproachable light. But He desires to prepare us so that we can approach Him in that light.
From Cloud to Light
Eventually, when I went into that light—having been prepared and having passed through the dark cloud—I could not remain there for even a fraction of a second. It was far too intense for me at that time, because the process of deconstruction and the renewal of my mind was still ongoing.
But I returned—and now I dwell in that approachable light. I dwell in the realm of light, in perfection. I abide there. It is my home, constantly, continually. And that was only possible because I went through the dark cloud. My soul and spirit were separated, then reintegrated. I was reconnected. And now, I can dwell in the realms of heaven continually.
Hidden Until We Are Ready
Interestingly, the Hebrew word for thick and dark is the same. It means that God is unseen or hidden from our direct sight—until we are ready, until we are prepared to meet Him face to face. And that is our destiny. That is the purpose of restoring first love. God does not want to keep us at a distance—but He wants us to be safe and secure in His presence. And that requires transformation.
Activation: Guided Meditation
I encourage you to just close your eyes. Get relaxed.
You may want to lie down. Just begin to relax your body.
You may want to start focusing on your breathing. Breathe in slowly… and hold it… Then breathe it out slowly.
And as you are breathing in and breathing out, Begin to focus your thinking on God, The Father, who is love.
As you begin to breathe in, You are breathing in unconditional love— The love of the Father for you As a son, as a daughter, as a child.
Breathe it in… And as you breathe it in, That unconditional love begins to flow through your whole being— Touching every cell of your body: Your mind, Your emotions, The whole of your soul, spirit and body.
So you can be still… And let God love on you. Let Him show you how much He loves you.
As His love fills you, Let joy and peace come and overwhelm you— Cocoon you. Let all of His being begin to flow in you. An atmosphere forms around you— A cocoon of love, joy and peace That you are just resting in, Relaxing in.
Be still. Wait. Just rest. Just wait—expectantly— For whatever God wants to do with you right now.
This is a safe place. You can get out of that boat—figuratively. You can choose to abandon yourself: Sink into that vast ocean of unconditional love, Where God’s love is so strong, so powerful, That you can trust Him— That He is a good God— That He wants the best for you.
Just go deeper and deeper into that love, As He restores that first love to you.
You can sink deeper… And deeper… There may be things around you that you sense or feel. Be willing to go deeper and deeper into love.
How does God receive my prayers—or even my thoughts? Is it simply that He just does, or is there something more going on? Could it be that He is receiving the electrical impulse I send out—the frequency of my intention when I am communicating with Him?
His being is capable of decoding that frequency, just as my brain decodes the electrical impulses that make up sight, hearing, taste, touch and smell. Even imagination, visions and spiritual impressions are forms of communication that my brain has learned to interpret. So, in the same way, God interprets the intention behind what I am expressing.
2. The Frequency of Communication
Language needs to be understood. That means I have to learn the language. For instance, if I wanted to learn Chinese—which is unlikely, and I would probably struggle—I would need to learn a whole new set of symbols and sounds. Only then would I be able to hear it and understand what is being said.
I could hear someone speaking Chinese right now, but I would not know what they meant. The sound reaches me, but without understanding, it is meaningless. The same principle applies to how we hear from God. Whether He communicates through thoughts, impressions, feelings or images, I have had to learn to decode that communication.
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3. Rediscovering Our Spiritual Bandwidth
And we can all learn to do this. Our senses were originally designed to engage with God—they just became disconnected from that spiritual bandwidth over time.
Adam, in the beginning, could interpret that frequency. He could see and feel spiritually because his spirit was what interpreted the world around him. When he chose independence, his soul began to filter perception instead—and he lost touch with that frequency.
As a result, over time and through various changes, we lost access to many ranges of spiritual and electromagnetic perception—those wavelengths we were originally created to engage with. But God is restoring that ability.
4. Tuning Back In
Now, we are beginning to perceive things differently. We are learning to tune in again. Our senses are being reawakened so we can re-engage the spiritual realm and perceive through a deeper, restored connection.
But this requires practice. We must learn to train our senses, to tune in to the frequencies of heaven, and to interpret what God is communicating—whether through intention, impression, vision or sound.
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A brooding thing is like a bird sitting on a clutch of eggs—keeping them warm, nurturing them until they are ready to hatch. In the same way, brooding is a process of aligning with the Father’s heart, thoughts and desires. As He reveals them, they begin to change me. I am being entrained—brought into resonance—with the frequency of His thoughts, so that I become harmonised with Him.
When that resonance is complete—when what He has revealed is fully formed in me—then it is ready to move to the next stage. That process could take a minute, an hour, or longer. It depends on what God is revealing: is He sharing every detail, or is He giving the shape of something so that I can begin to creatively express it?
2. Becoming His Voice, Resonating with His Frequency
So, am I becoming a frequency? Yes—I am His voice. That means I resonate with creative energy. I may not hum, but others do, and that can be a way of expressing it. Some people meditate with sound, with chants, bowls or frequencies to help them focus—and there is nothing wrong with that. It is simply what works for each person.
For me, it is internal. I find my thoughts aligning and entraining to His. That may sound simple, and I have not really considered all the mechanics of it, but I do understand what frequency is. God’s voice is frequency. It vibrates with creative energy and has the power to bring about what He says.
3. Intention and the Creative Process
There is no exact right or wrong method—otherwise it becomes a formula, and people try to copy the method rather than embrace the process. The key is to allow the process to work through you.
If you hum and light responds—wonderful. For me, I focus my intention in thought. That thought carries creative energy, and then light responds. The wave function collapses, if you want to use quantum language. I understand the science, but for me, it is not about the mechanics. It is about engagement.
Now I know others do things differently. For example, when I have engaged with Nancy, she sometimes hums or makes unusual sounds. And when we did an activation around the energy gates during the Restoration of All Things conference, she used different vocal sounds and physical actions to help people tune in.
4. Diverse Expressions of Energy Engagement
There were seven different sounds and corresponding gestures—one for each energy gate. It was a bit like a line dance, with everyone moving and sounding together. For me, it looked a bit amusing, but I understood that she was simply breaking the process down to help people engage.
I had seen something similar in a TV series—I think it was The OA. In it, a group of people each produced a different sound and movement. When they combined them, it generated energy that opened a portal. I resonated with that because I had seen something very similar prophetically in real life.
Now, when I activate the energy gates, I do not need to sing or move—I just focus and intentionally activate them. That works for me. But again, the point is not to copy someone else’s way, but to discover what works for you.
Some people may need sound, or physical movement, or other symbolic actions to help them engage. And that is perfectly fine. It is all about intention—how we focus, engage and release energy. Each sound or movement can carry intention, and when combined with faith and resonance, they can open realms of experience and revelation.
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1. Misunderstandings Around Healing and Science
Now, Christians who would call this kind of thing new age often do not realise they are contradicting themselves. They will say the Bible supports healing—but as soon as you begin to explore how it might actually happen, they object. They treat it as if it is magic. And that is the issue: Christians who are not really tuned in tend to think, “Well, God just heals. It just happens.”
They are quite happy with the idea that it happens as if by magic, but as soon as you begin to explain the science—or the spiritual mechanics—they say, “Oh no, that is not faith. You should not be trying to work out how it happens.” But God did show us how it happens.
2. The Conflict with Traditional Beliefs
God literally showed me how to generate anointing. We had been dependent on the Holy Spirit giving us a gift of healing—then we would lay hands on people, and sometimes they would feel heat in our hands, tingling energy, or even be overwhelmed and fall to the floor. There was always something tangible taking place.
Then God said to me, “I want you to focus on what I said you could do—lay hands on the sick and see them recover.” So I began to focus my intention, agreeing with what God said, and releasing that intention through my hands.
3. Understanding Spiritual Healing
What I was doing was channelling the energy flowing from the Spirit within me—rivers of living water, as Jesus described—out of my innermost being and into others. Now, the moment you use the word channelling, people react. “You cannot use that word!” they say. But it simply means something is flowing from within me to someone else.
That is all that happens when anyone lays hands on another person. Energy is flowing. But people do not like the terminology, so they reject the whole idea. That is a huge barrier. But God showed me that my intention, focused in agreement with His word, could direct that energy through my hand and into someone’s body.
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4. Personal Insights on Anointing
Back in the 1940s and 50s, healing revivalist William Branham would place his hand on someone and feel vibrational energy. He could then name the disease they had without being told. He said an angel had taught him how to do it. There is even a famous photo of him with a visible halo of light over his head, taken long before the days of Photoshop—people could not explain it.
He had learned how to tune into something God was using to administer healing. I am not saying everyone has to do this the same way—but we can learn to tune into frequencies.
5. The Role of Intention in Healing
For example, you can use crystal bowls to create a sound bath. You place the bowls around a person and play them. The sound surrounds them—immerses them in a frequency. You can release intention into that frequency. You can also place the bowls on the body—on the chest or in the hand—and when played, you can feel the energy resonate through you.
There was one large bowl, probably two and a half feet across, that you could stand in. When played, your whole body vibrated. It was powerful. I had a sound bath in Phoenix, Arizona. The man used crystal bowls and Tibetan singing bowls—he placed them on my back and legs.
6. Challenging the Terminology
The moment he started playing them, I went straight into a deep encounter with God. It was instant. I became aware of all sorts of things happening—at a deep spiritual level. God spoke to me in that space. Afterwards, I asked the man what he had seen and felt. What he shared was exactly what I had experienced too.
It was a very positive encounter. The man is a Christian and uses this practice to help people—often to set them free or bring healing, especially those who feel oppressed or depressed. It surrounds them with peace—cocoons them in sound and intention. That atmosphere of peace can bring real relief and restoration.
There is much God is revealing about frequency and intention. It is not about new age—it is about rediscovering how creation itself was designed to work.
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From my perspective, it is like there are two scrolls. One is the scroll written of me by the Father—it is the scroll of my destiny, of my identity. The other is the scroll that is the record of my life—how I have actually lived.
Some of my life has been aligned with that identity and destiny, and some of it has not. When I engaged the judgment seat of Christ and the fire of God’s presence, I took the scroll of my life. Literally, of course, it is me stepping into that place—but the scroll is a way of relating to the process.
The Bible describes scrolls being written front and back, and that was my experience too. I brought that scroll before the Father. All I saw was a consuming fire—His eyes—and the scroll was opened.
Understanding Our Destiny
On the front side of the scroll, I saw wood, hay and straw—and also gold, silver and precious stones. These represented the things I had done as a believer. This was not about my life before I knew Christ—because everything from that time, every action rooted in lost identity, has already been forgiven and dealt with at the cross.
What I was seeing was my life in Christ—how I had lived in relationship with God. Some things had mixed motives. I was doing certain things to affirm my identity, to validate myself through activity. They were not necessarily wrong, but the motive was not pure.
And He consumed all of those things—everything described as wood, hay and straw. But the gold, silver and precious stones remained. My scroll—my life—was refined. Everything contradictory was removed. There was no guilt, no shame, no condemnation—just love.
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Reflecting on Life Choices
On the reverse side of the scroll, I saw more gold, silver and precious stones—and more wood, hay and straw. This represented the things I had done in alignment with the Father’s heart, and also the things I had missed—things I could have done, but did not.
Some of those omissions came because I was not paying attention, or I was too busy, or simply unaware of what the Father was doing. As I began to feel sorrow and regret for missing those things, He just lovingly consumed it all—no condemnation, no guilt—just love.
That love removed all potential for the enemy to accuse me, or for me to condemn myself. He purified my scroll—my life—completely, so that nothing could hold me back.
The Judgment Seat of Christ
The judgment seat of Christ is not about punishment. It is about purification. It is about bringing our lives into alignment with who the Father says we are—not who we have been shaped to be by the world, our culture, our upbringing or religious systems.
Religion warps our identity. But God wants to reveal our true identity as sons. He wants us to operate from the truth of who we are in Him—not the false version formed by lost identity.
He has continued to speak to me—to reveal the vast sum of His thoughts about me, so I can come into deeper understanding of who I really am. I do not know everything yet—He is still revealing. But that is relationship. Sonship is discovered through relationship.
God’s Love and Forgiveness
In that relationship, He continues to purify and refine my life—removing anything that might hinder me from progressively knowing who I truly am and living from that reality. I know there were many times I acted from mixed motives—trying to earn or prove my identity.
But He has removed that mixture. The pure in heart will see God, and I did not want anything impure clouding that. In His kindness and generosity, He purified not only the record of my life, but also my memory of it.
There are things I can no longer recall—literally gone—wiped clean by His love and grace. And that is just His mercy and His wonderful, overwhelming love.
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