For me, I would only ever want to create something that came out of the Father’s desire, out of His heart. So I am co-creating—I am not creating independently. I am always going to be engaged with the Father’s heart. Now, if I am talking about something that is around my own life or environment, and I want my intention to be blessed or favoured, then I am simply outworking the Father’s heart as He has revealed it to me. I can choose the realities that form around my life through intention, forming the life that I live from that place of rest.
But if it is something beyond myself—something creative, something not about my own life—then I will engage the Father. And there is a process. I think I have taught on this process before, but the process is to engage in what I call the cradle of life. That is the place where the heart of God reveals to your heart His desires, and you come into agreement with them. It is a brooding place, where you become pregnant with His desire. And through that brooding and meditating and simply being in His heart, you begin to resonate with His thinking and His desires. And when you are in agreement with that—when you are in harmony—you become the voice that speaks that desire into being.
From there, you engage that voice, like the sound of many waters—the voice of God. You become His voice. That leads into the chamber of creation, which you can come to through various stages. And in that place, when you speak, light responds, and creation happens. Now, I am describing a process, but that process eventually becomes a state of being.
So for example, when I created some guardian beings—I did not consciously go through all of those stages like: I am going to do this, then this. It is just where I live. I was in the Council of Guardians and they asked, “Will you create some guardians?” I was a bit taken aback. I had never heard another being ask me to create more of them before. So I went to the Father to check it out. I asked, “Do I have permission to do this? Is this Your heart?” And the Father was like, “Well, of course it is. They are a Council of Guardians. They are not going to tell you anything that is not aligned with My heart.”
So I was learning. And then I asked, “Well, how do I do it?” And He just said, “You know how to do it. It is the same way you do everything—by intention.” So with that, I realised I already had the Father’s heart. I had chosen to come into agreement with it. I did not need to go and sit again in the cradle of life to find out what He thought. His thoughts had already come to me—through the Guardians, essentially.
So I went back to the Council and, by intention, I released that intention to create, and creation formed. Light responded to my desire.
Now I did ask the Father, “Why are there not enough guardians?” There was something in me thinking, “Did You not create enough in the first place?” I did not voice that out loud, but it was in my thoughts. And He said—because He knew what I was thinking—“We have left many things undone and incomplete for you, our sons, to complete.” That is the co-creating we are invited into. There are things that They—the Father, Son and Spirit—have deliberately left for us to fulfil, to complete, to bring into being.
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Wait expectantly
I got through November, December and January—but I was in a bad way emotionally. Then came February, and all I felt was: wait expectantly. This was the dark cloud again, but now with the sense that hope would return. Still, I was frustrated. Why wait? What for? When would something actually happen? I sensed—not in words, but inwardly—that I should fast for 20 or 21 days, and then breakthrough would come. That gave me something to hold on to, a flicker of hope.
So I started fasting. Eight days in, I poisoned myself with contaminated water. I had not cleaned out the water cooler properly. For five days after that, I could not even keep water down. I had already gone over a week without food, and now no sleep, no hydration. I was delirious. Physically, emotionally, I was running on empty. I did not do what I would advise anyone else to do. I did not call the elders; I did not ask for prayer; I did not go to the doctor. I just let it happen. I suppose I embraced it, though I did not really know why.
My soul had had enough by that point. I said to God, “I surrender”—just to make it stop. I did not mean it, and it did not stop; it intensified. For another two weeks or more, I was at the absolute end of myself. My soul gave up. It stopped asking. I had no more questions. I could finally be still—because I had no strength to be anything else. I could wait, I could rest, because I could do nothing else. I could not even think.
It was my ‘Garden of Gethsemane’, in a way. Every part of me—body, soul, mind, emotions, will—was spent. I got the faintest glimpse of what Jesus must have endured, though his was infinitely greater. He took on the lost identity of all of us. Every dark cloud, every wound, every bit of brokenness. He carried it all. That is how deep his love goes.
God reminded me of some scriptures—Psalm 22: “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” It felt like that. I was groaning and crying out, and God seemed miles away. But then, verse 24 says that he did not despise the suffering or hide his face. He heard. He heard me. He just knew I had to come to the end of myself.
Psalm 42 was another. “Why are you in despair, O my soul?” That was exactly how I felt—mentally exhausted, unable to focus, even to pray in tongues. I stopped trying. Emotionally I was wrecked. I started accusing God, and I received accusations—from myself, from the enemy. I felt I was a failure in every area: husband, father, leader, person. And I believed every word of it.
But God was using this. He was preparing me for what was ahead—for the criticism, the trolling, the accusations that would come. Nothing people might say could ever be worse than what I had already said to myself. Colossians 1:24 came to mind—Paul talks about rejoicing in his sufferings and filling up what is lacking in Christ’s afflictions. Not adding to them, because we cannot—but joining in that unselfish love that undergirds all true ministry.
That is what God was working in me: love, joy and peace that does not come from anything external, but only from him. And I had not fully surrendered, so I was still going through it. But even that was his mercy, drawing me deeper into his love.
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Rejoice – Again I say, rejoice!
Rejoice in the Lord always—again I say, rejoice. (Philippians 4:4).
It felt like I might just be getting there. I had no strength to give thanks, but something began to rise in me—not from my soul, but from my spirit. Hope started to return. 1 Peter 4:13 says, “To the degree that you share the sufferings of Christ, keep on rejoicing.” And something shifted. I began to rejoice. My attitude changed. Joy became strength.
And then came the shaking. Hebrews 12 talks about removing the things that can be shaken so only what cannot be shaken remains. That consuming fire—God’s presence—was burning everything up. And I chose to offer myself. I surrendered, even though I was burning inside and out. The fire of God’s love was testing what would remain. That was when I burned my ketubah—a contract I had written with 68 demands, all good things: to fulfil destiny, sonship, purpose. But it was my contract with God, not his. As I burned it, I felt each item die. And I grieved, deeply. Waves of loss rolled over me.
And then came the question: “Do you still love me?” If nothing I desired came to pass, would I still love God? Would I trust him, still rejoice, still believe he is good? Yes. My soul had finally surrendered. He searched and tested my heart—not to punish, but to purify. The pure in heart see God. That is what he wanted: face-to-face relationship.
I surrendered control. I no longer needed to know anything, see anything. If he never showed me another thing, I did not care. Could God trust me? That was the real issue—not what I could do for him, or him for me—but relationship. When I surrendered, he told me he trusted me. If he never did another thing for me, I would still love him. And if I never did anything for him again, he would still love me.
Those four months had been four phases: garden, dance floor, soaking room, dark cloud—be still, wait, rest, wait expectantly. They all turned out to be invitations by grace, but my soul had turned them into duties, burdens, performance. Until finally, I surrendered even my obedience. He freed me from needing to earn identity through duty. I saw that my redemptive gift is not what I do, but who I am.
And was it all worth it—just for relationship? Absolutely. It brought me to 2 Corinthians 7:16: I rejoice that in everything I have confidence in you. That night, when I surrendered completely and found joy, he separated and reintegrated my soul and spirit. I could never have done that myself—only he, the living Word, could. Everything changed. My soul and spirit became quantum entangled, re-joined from the inside out.
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The next day, I woke up totally restored. No symptoms. Physically and emotionally whole. I sat in my chair and re-engaged heaven. But now I was free—untethered. Not stepping in and out, but abiding. My spirit stayed in the heavenly realms. My soul no longer anchored me to the earth. I live in dual realms, connected, unified. Everything the Father wanted to show me became accessible. From that day, my spirit has never left that realm. My soul became a channel for heaven to touch earth. Joined to the Lord, one spirit. The gateway opened.
Looking back now, I can honestly say—I rejoice. I celebrate what the Father did in me. It was awesome. I am so deeply grateful. He loved me enough to take me through that fire, through that pressure, through the darkest cloud I had ever experienced—because he knew what was on the other side. He wanted me to be free. He wanted me to know the depth of his unconditional love. He wanted me to experience limitless grace, triumphant mercy—not just know about them, but live from them. And I do. That is where I live from now.
So now, I want to encourage you—just open your heart. Just be willing. Ask Jesus to take you wherever he wants you to go. Do not try to control the outcome, do not try to shape the experience. Just say, “Yes, I am willing.” Maybe he will take you into the dark cloud. Maybe it will be something completely different. But whatever it is, if he is leading, you can trust it. Trust him. You might not understand it at the time, I certainly did not—but he knows what he is doing. And if you are willing to say to him, “I choose to embrace this path of transformation,” then say it. Tell him. But do not try to make anything happen. Let him lead. Desire it, yes—but do not create the agenda. That was the biggest lesson for me: only he can initiate it, only he can take you through it.
And really, that is where this whole series began—right back at the beginning: to experience first love, we have to abandon our soul into the trust of the God who loves us unconditionally. That is what he wanted me to get to. That was my journey. That was how I got out of the boat. And we all need to get out of that boat. The boat of survival. The boat where we think we are in control, where we try to make everything safe and understandable. We have to get out of that boat, and sink into the vast, endless ocean of unconditional love.
Because only there—only in that place of absolute surrender, trust and intimacy—can we truly experience what it means to walk with God, to know him, to be known by him. That is what he is after. That is what this whole thing is about. It is not about doing anything for him. It is not about fulfilling a calling, or achieving anything at all. It is about being with him, loving him, and letting him love us. That is the invitation. That is the transformation. That is first love.
Activation (full version).
I encourage you just to close your eyes. Get relaxed. You may want to lie down. You can relax your body.
You may want to start by focusing on your breathing— breathe in slowly… hold it… and then breathe out slowly.
And as you are breathing in and breathing out, begin to focus your thinking on God the Father—who is love.
As you begin to breathe in, you are breathing in unconditional love— the love of the Father for you as a son, as a daughter, as a child.
Breathe it in. And as you breathe it in, that unconditional love begins to flow through your whole being— touching every cell of your body, your mind, your emotions, the whole of your soul, spirit and body.
Be still… and let God love on you. Let Him show you how much He loves you.
As His love fills you, let joy and peace come—overwhelm you, cocoon you. All of His being begins to flow in you. An atmosphere forms around you— a cocoon of love, joy and peace that you are simply resting in… relaxing in…
Be still. Wait. Just rest. Wait expectantly.
Whatever God wants to do with you right now— this is a safe place.
You can get out of that boat—figuratively. You can choose to abandon yourself— to sink into that vast ocean of unconditional love— where God’s love is so strong, so powerful, that you can trust Him.
He is a good God. He wants the best for you.
Just go deeper and deeper into that love, as He restores that first love to you.
You can sink deeper… and deeper.
There may be things around you that you sense or feel. Be willing to go deeper into that love.
You can stay in that place.
Maybe you want to get closer and more intimate with the Father— face to face with His presence.
You can fix your thoughts. Jesus wants to reveal the Father to you. The Holy Spirit wants to reveal Jesus to you. So they can reveal themselves to you— in intimacy.
Think about the Father meeting you. Fix your thoughts in your imagination. Picture a door in your spirit— and you can choose to open that door.
Invite the Father’s presence in— to hug you, to breathe His breath of life into you.
And as the Father embraces you in love, be open to wherever He wants to lead you— maybe to the soaking room, if that is where you are, maybe to the realms of heaven— where you can engage the judgment seat, or the altar of fire, or the river of fire.
Perhaps you want to take your scroll— to have it tested and purified by the consuming fire of His love.
Or maybe ask Him to take you into that dark cloud experience— if you are willing, if you feel the desires of your heart are set upon it.
Wherever the Father wants to lead you, just be willing to go— knowing that you can trust Him.
Because He loves you. He wants the best for you. He is a good God.
He wants you to truly know who He really is, so you can truly know who you really are— as a child of God.
Be open to wherever He takes you right now…
Feel free to stay in that place as long as you would like—a place of intimacy, a place of love, a place of rejoicing, where the joy and peace of God can just fill you and flood you.
During a dark cloud experience in worship in October 2011, the Father asked me if I would give Him four months. Now, I thought, wow—forty days was amazing—imagine what four months could do. He did not say a four-month fast (I think that might have been extreme, but I probably would have done it). Nevertheless, I was so excited. Of course I said yes to that invitation. I mean, it was like—wow—what was God going to do with me when I gave Him four months?
So I chose November 2011 to February 2012 for my four months. It was not a fast, but it was a time without journaling, without agenda—or so I thought. Well, I suppose I did: I wanted more. But He had an agenda. Wow. I was in for a shock, again, from that Jehovah-Sneaky. He tricked me into this—probably because He knew I might not accept if I knew what was going to happen. I do not know. But He got me into that place.
So—November the first, 2011. I got up, six in the morning, and I sat in my usual reclining chair, expecting something amazing to happen. Remember, I had had over a year of daily experiences and encounters in heaven, within my own spirit and soul—and now what happened? Nothing. Darkness. A blank, black screen. How confused I was! How shocked I was! How sad I was!
Now in hindsight, I can see what God was doing through those four months. Each month was a separate period. And I see He was taking me back to the garden, but I could not see it or experience it cognitively. He took me back to the dance floor. He took me to the soaking room, and into the dark cloud. But I could not see or feel anything—other than it was dark. Black. I could see nothing. I could hear nothing. It was horrible.
Be still
All I felt was, “Be still.” That was it. Be still. I had to be still. But I was so frustrated, confused, disappointed. My soul did not handle being still very well.
So there I am, November 2011, and God is taking me back into the garden so I could know God who is love. But that was tested, because I could not see it, and I could not feel it. All I had to do was be still. Psalm 46:10—“Be still and know that I am God.” That was the first verse I ever meditated on. I had meditated on that verse for years. And now God had asked me to be still, and I could not.
Another version of that verse says, “Step out of the traffic. Take a long, loving look at Me, your high God.” I could not see Him. It was like—how unfair is that? I had no problem being still until I was invited to be still—and my soul reacted to that darkness. I kicked off.
Now, there are other verses.
He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the Lord, ‘My refuge and my fortress, my God in whom I trust.’ (Psalm 91:1).
But I could not trust Him. In fact, I did not trust Him. God is love—but would I trust Him without seeing and knowing what He is doing? My soul failed that test miserably. I had to know what He was doing. I bombarded Him with questions. I needed to know. Why was He doing this to me? What was happening?
See, if I knew what He was doing, I felt secure—and I could trust Him. But I did not trust Him as much as I thought, obviously. My soul kicked off. I really needed to know. I had to know. And of course—God did not tell me. Which was so frustrating, and so annoying. And I got so angry with God, I said things to Him which I am not proud of now. Of course, He was smiling all along. I could not see Him, but He was smiling, because He knew what this process was going to do in me.
I remembered that God once said, “I do not need your assistance, just your surrender.” I remembered that—but I could not do it. My soul could not surrender. And I think I did not really know God’s unconditional love. I knew God is love. I knew God loved me. But actually, was it unconditional? I do not think my soul accepted that that was the truth.
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So—November was a miserable month. I went through a terrible struggle. I was hoping that December would be better. So—the first of December—I get up. I go back, I sit in my chair. Nothing again. Blank. All I felt was: “Wait.” Looking back, I can see that God was taking me on the dance floor. There would be joy. But I had to wait. Why did I need to wait? What was I waiting for? Isaiah 40:31—Those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength. Great. But I could not see what He was doing, so I could not wait. I wanted to know.
Another version says, “Those who wait for the Lord, who expect, look for, and hope for Him, shall change and renew their strength and power.” I think that is the Amplified version. Nehemiah 8:10 says “The joy of the Lord is your strength.” So God wanted me to experience joy based on nothing other than Him. So I was waiting. Do nothing, see nothing, know nothing. That was not joy. I did not feel joyful, or blissful, or any other description of joy. I was miserable.
Could joy come from no external circumstances, only from my relationship with the Lord? Well obviously, yes. I discovered that in the end. But while I was going through it? Absolutely not. I felt no joy at all. I was miserable. Even Christmas was horrible that year, because inside I was in turmoil. I was so struggling with what was happening to me. It felt so unfair that God had made me this way—and now I could not be me. That is how it felt.
So—why do I have to wait? What am I waiting for? Why are You making me wait? Who am I waiting for? My soul was absolutely, totally out of control. And I believe the Father was showing me what I would be like without my spirit’s influence. Because when I came into relationship with God, and when the Holy Spirit was alive in me, and when revelation came, and when I was baptised in the Spirit, and filled with the Spirit, and all these amazing things—I had wonderful experiences of God. And it was great.
But now God was showing me what I was like on my own, following my own path, in my soul. Needing to know what God was doing, to even have a hope of joy. So why would I have to wait? It was so hard.
Rest
Then January came. The first of January. I was hoping—hoping—that this would be a new year and something would change. And all I felt was: rest. Rest. I could not rest. I was now in the soaking room. Rest. Peace. God wanted me to come into peace. I could not feel peaceful. I was anything but peaceful. I was riled. My emotions were high. My soul was in turmoil.
Matthew 11:28—“Come to me, all who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” Well—I was weary and heavy laden at this point. I really felt my soul was carrying this weight of producing my own identity from what I was doing. “Take my yoke upon you and learn from me; I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.” I did not find rest for my soul. I could not enter rest.
I had been at rest for a whole year. Wonderfully at rest. He had taught me from that scripture. He opened it up so I could know what it was to come into rest. And now He invited me to rest—and I could not rest. Do nothing, see nothing, know nothing, be nothing. More frustration.
I could not do it. I could not rest. Which was the point. Because He was basically saying, you do not have to try to create rest. You come to Me. Being gentle and humble in heart is true peace, where identity and destiny are accepted and surrendered for God’s glory. But I could not do it.
So was I willing to take the yoke of Jesus, even when it made no sense? When I did not understand? When I could not figure it out? When I did not know what God was doing? Could I do it? No. I could not. Absolutely no way. So would I follow His lead and be His disciple in pure trust? Which is exactly what He wanted me to do. But I could not. Not at that point. I could not do it.
Why do I need to rest? What am I resting for? What are You doing, making me rest? Who am I resting for? What is it all about? My soul just asked question upon question upon question. I could not be still. I could not wait. I could not rest. I was in turmoil—continually. I was asking those questions—but really they were accusations. I was accusing God. What are You doing? Why are You doing this to me? It is unfair. I have done nothing to deserve this. I do not like it.
But—I got through November, December and January. I got through it. But I was pretty bad—emotionally. And then I got to February. And all I felt was: wait expectantly. Now—I was going to go into the dark cloud. Now—hope would return.
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Activation (excerpt)
I encourage you to just close your eyes. Get relaxed.
You may want to lie down. You can relax your body.
Begin by focusing on your breathing. Breathe in slowly… and hold it… Then breathe it out… slowly.
And as you breathe in… and breathe out… Start to focus your thinking on God the Father, who is love.
As you begin to breathe in, You are breathing in unconditional love— The love of the Father for you, As a son, As a daughter, As His child.
Breathe it in.
As you do, that unconditional love begins to flow Through your whole being— Touching every cell of your body, Your mind, Your emotions, The whole of your soul, spirit, and body.
Let yourself be still, And let God love on you. Let Him show you how much He loves you.
As His love fills you, Joy and peace come— They overwhelm you, They cocoon you.
All of His being begins to flow in you. An atmosphere forms around you— A cocoon of love, joy, and peace.
You are just resting in it. Relaxing in it.
Be still. Wait. Rest. Wait expectantly.
Whatever God wants to do with you—right now— This is a safe place.
You can get out of the boat—figuratively. You can choose to abandon yourself, To sink into that vast ocean of unconditional love, Where God’s love is so strong, so powerful— You can trust Him.
He is a good God, And He wants the best for you.
Just go deeper and deeper into that love As He restores first love to you.
You can sink deeper… And deeper…
There may be things around you that you sense or feel. Be willing to go deeper and deeper… Into love.
God does not want to keep us at a distance. He wants us to be safe and secure in His presence—but that requires transformation.
Of course, Jesus wanted to share many things with His disciples, just as the Father desires to reveal amazing things to us. But we may not yet be ready to experience them. In John 16:12, Jesus said, “I have many more things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now.” That was certainly true for me. God wanted to reveal so much, and eventually He did, but at the time I simply could not bear it.
There is revelation, truth, and encounter available to us—but, like the disciples, we may not be ready. It is not because we are unworthy or not good enough, but because our minds need renewing. There are still things in our souls that need to be dealt with so that we learn to trust God—not based on what we see or understand—but simply because He is God. Our relationship with Him must be based on who He is, not on what He does for us, nor on what we do for Him.
Visiting or Dwelling?
God prepares us to dwell with Him in face-to-face intimacy—not just to visit from time to time. At one stage, I was visiting His presence. I was engaging with the realms of heaven, but I was not able to engage with His person—at least, not until I had been through this process.
My encounters in the dark cloud were preparing me for what was to come, though I was completely unaware of that at the time. I did not know what He was doing, or what He was going to do. I thought I had experienced everything there was to experience—how wrong I was!
Once, during one of those dark cloud encounters, I saw my destiny scroll. There was an event marked on it by a blue flame. The Father called it the eternal flame. I was deeply curious—why was I being shown this? At the time, I had no idea it would relate to what I was about to walk through. I saw my life flash before me, leading up to that moment within the flame. I just knew that nothing would ever be the same again. But I did not know what it meant, or how it would unfold. God was showing me something important, something intriguing—an invitation. And, as I sometimes say, Jehovah Sneaky knew I would not be able to resist.
He did not tell me what He was going to do—He simply invited me to engage the eternal flame for a life-changing experience. A friend of mine later painted a picture of someone in a blue flame. When I saw it, it resonated so strongly—it felt as though she had painted me, right there in the midst of that flame that had changed my life.
True Identity and Redemptive Gifts
As part of that process, the Father wanted to reveal my true identity to me—an identity closely linked to my redemptive gift. That redemptive gift is how the Father has wired me, as a son, to engage with the world around me and to mature into His fullness. It is how I see, perceive, and interact with life.
My true identity is connected to my redemptive gift, but it needed to be freed from the performance-based, soul-driven tendencies that had developed through my life experiences. Trauma, nurture, and upbringing can all shape how that gift functions—often making it impure.
In my case, I was using my redemptive gift to create and validate my identity. My redemptive gift is prophet–teacher. That is not the same as the spiritual gift of prophecy. This kind of “prophet” describes how I perceive and process the world. And I am almost equally prophet and teacher—every redemptive gift survey I have done reflects that. That is how God wired me to function as a son: curious about how things work, with the ability to explain them to others. That is probably why He chose me to be a forerunner in heavenly engagement—to open up that realm for others. Hopefully I can share my experiences in a way that is not too weird, so that people can see what is available to them too.
But I had gained my identity and security from the knowledge I received by doing that. I was using my soul to engage heaven—to see and know what the Father was doing, which in itself is good. But my soul would not allow my spirit to engage heaven on its own. Though we are seated in heavenly places, the consciousness of my soul was limiting my spirit’s ability to dwell and remain there. I was tethered to myself, and to the earth.
The Surrender of Self
So the essence of who I was, redemptively, was being used to create a false identity—and to bring me security and independence from my spirit. What I discovered was that me, myself, and I had to surrender. My soul and spirit had to be separated so that they could be reintegrated into oneness—spirit, soul, and body—joined and one with God. From His perspective, we are already one with Him.
As it says in 1 Corinthians 6:17,19-20: “But the one who joins himself to the Lord is one spirit with Him. Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own? For you have been bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body.”
This is what God desires: union so complete that we are one. But I could not experience that union—because my soul would not allow it. In my own understanding, I was alienated.
The Mirror Bible puts it beautifully: “In our union with Him, we are one spirit with the Lord. Do you not realise that your body, by design, is the sacred shrine of the Spirit of God echoing within you? You are not the sole owner of your life—you are bought and paid for. All of you is His. Live your life conscious of how irreplaceably priceless you are. You host God in your skin.”
Gifted by Design, Not Performance
God wants to free us from the need for our soul to find identity in works—what the Bible calls the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, the path most of the world is on.
The purity of who we are redemptively must be tested and refined by fire. I believe our redemptive gifts will grow beyond just one or two, eventually reflecting all seven—to become more like Jesus. As the fruit of the Spirit matures in us, we will function more fully as sons—engaging not just in one way, but in every way.
The redemptive gifts listed in Romans 12:6–8 are prophet, servant, teacher, exhorter, giver, ruler, and mercy. These are not spiritual gifts for ministry. They are who we are. We are God’s gift to the world. The refining process reveals those gifts and frees us from the need to earn our identity through our own works. We can finally be who God intended—no longer performance-driven, trying to earn His favour.
That testing will look different for each of us. When I first studied redemptive gifts—through the teaching of Arthur Burk—I began to see how God uses testing to purify each one. When I taught on the ketubah in church, I warned people: If you go down this road, you will be tested.
I knew ruler-gift and servant-gift friends who had their ability to rule or serve removed—just like that. Then they had to face the question: Who am I without that? Who was I, without being able to see, understand, and teach?God was trying to show me: I am not who I am because of what I do, but because of who He made me to be. Even if I never did any of those things again, I would still be who I am.
A Restoration of Original Design
God took me through the dark cloud because He loves me.
He wanted to restore me to my original condition—so that I would know myself as He made me.
He wanted to bless me fully.
He wanted to reveal my heavenly identity and position as a son.
He wanted to release me into the fullness of sonship authority to engage creation.
But to do that, He had to do something quite drastic -it may be easier for you than it was for me.
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Activation: Resting in Unconditional Love
I encourage you to just close your eyes. Get relaxed.
You may want to lie down. You can relax your body.
Begin by focusing on your breathing. Breathe in slowly… and hold it… Then breathe it out… slowly.
And as you breathe in… and breathe out… Start to focus your thinking on God the Father, who is love.
As you begin to breathe in, You are breathing in unconditional love— The love of the Father for you, As a son, As a daughter, As His child.
Breathe it in.
As you do, that unconditional love begins to flow Through your whole being— Touching every cell of your body, Your mind, Your emotions, The whole of your soul, spirit, and body.
Let yourself be still, And let God love on you. Let Him show you how much He loves you.
As His love fills you, Joy and peace come— They overwhelm you, They cocoon you.
All of His being begins to flow in you. An atmosphere forms around you— A cocoon of love, joy, and peace.
You are just resting in it. Relaxing in it.
Be still. Wait. Rest. Wait expectantly.
Whatever God wants to do with you—right now— This is a safe place.
You can get out of the boat—figuratively. You can choose to abandon yourself, To sink into that vast ocean of unconditional love, Where God’s love is so strong, so powerful— You can trust Him.
He is a good God, And He wants the best for you.
Just go deeper and deeper into that love As He restores first love to you.
You can sink deeper… And deeper…
There may be things around you that you sense or feel. Be willing to go deeper and deeper… Into love.
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Where do we get our value from? Where do we get our identity from?
What I discovered on this journey of restored first love and identity was that I had been getting my value, worth and identity from what I was doing. And therefore, if I was not doing those things, I struggled with how I felt about myself.
Lessons from Hebrew Marriage
We have been exploring the restoration of first love through the lens of the six aspects of Hebrew marriage found in the Old Testament. God revealed to Israel that He desired a marriage relationship with them. However, they failed to accept that invitation. Instead, they set up their own system of Hebrew marriage, based on what they believed God had done—but something was missing: relationship.
It became a relationship based on contract, not covenant.
We looked at:
The Garden (Lakah) – God drawing us into intimacy and revealing His love
The Dance Floor (Segullah) – where He entwines with us, revealing our identity and destiny
The Mikveh – the soaking room of preparation and transformation, where He prepares us to come into His presence
The Ketubah – the covenant of relationship (which, in my case, I initially misunderstood and approached from the soul)
The Kiddushin – the betrothal, the dark cloud of surrender
The Huppah – the bridal chamber, the consummation of deeper union
False Identity
I was on a journey to have my first love identity revealed, which meant my false soul identity had to be exposed. I did not know who I truly was, and therefore, I was operating in the power of the soul. The soaking room began that process; the dark cloud completed it.
Today, I want to talk about that dark cloud experience—what led to it, how it unfolded, and how it changed everything. The Father’s goal was intimacy and union—symbolised by marriage and consummation in the bridal chamber—which would lead to a face-to-face experience of God’s person, far beyond experiencing His presence.
Into the Dark Cloud
I reached a point on my journey where the soaking and fire of preparation were drawing me towards the bridal chamber—to that consummation, to deeper intimacy, truth and knowledge than I had ever imagined. But first came the dark cloud of separation and reintegration of soul and spirit, which brought about total surrender of the soul. That was, without doubt, one of the hardest things I have ever gone through in my life—but also the most beneficial.
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Exposing the Thoughts and Intentions
This transformation revealed the need for that separation and reintegration. It exposed the thoughts and intentions of my heart, which were so soulish that I was shocked by my own reactions when God tested me. But He did it for my good, knowing that it was the only way to bring me into my true identity and reveal His true nature to me.
It was incredibly hard. The motives of my heart were mixed. Some of my intentions were shaped by the programming of wrong religious belief systems. Those flawed intentions were exposed when I attempted to make a ketubah—a marriage contract—with God, instead of entering into the new covenant that had already been prepared for me to be included in. The whole process had been flawed from the beginning, and it brought to light the root of my soulish motivations.
The Father used those stages to help me see the false perspective of the soul, in contrast with my true identity—created in His image and likeness, as a son. The flaws in my thoughts and intentions became apparent when I tried to make demands of God—rather than surrendering to relationship and trusting Him.
Contract vs Covenant
That is the problem with a contract—it does not rest on trust. A contract says, “If you do this, I will do that.” These are your demands; these are mine. And if one party fails to meet those conditions, that is seen as marital unfaithfulness and could bring the relationship to an end—because it was never based on trust.
That is what I discovered. I might have claimed I trusted God, and believed I did, but the truth was my relationship with Him was not built on trust. It was built on reward: being rewarded for what I was doing and drawing my identity from my works for God.
Now, none of the things I was doing were wrong in themselves—but I was doing them from the wrong motivation. I was driven by a need for self-validation. I found that I could trust God only when I understood what He was doing. If I did not understand, I could not trust. I did not realise that until He revealed it to me—and when He did, it absolutely shocked me.
Some of my intentions were definitely performance-driven, not pure.
The Nature of the Dark Cloud
My dark cloud experience will be different from yours. You might not go through the same darkness and inability to see that I did. Others have shared different stories of how God brought them to deeper relationship. But I do believe we all must experience a separation and reintegration of soul and spirit.
We are all born into this world with our souls shaped from the outside in. Everything we learned about ourselves, the world and even God came through our physical senses. Our soul interpreted that data and built a worldview, a belief system, based on upbringing, experience and, often, religious or educational systems.
God wanted to bring me—and wants to bring each of us—into the bridal chamber for consummation, into a face-to-face encounter with the Father’s person. For that to happen, He must reorient our inner being so that our relationship is led by the spirit and not the soul. It must move from spirit to soul, not the other way round—so that we can be joined to the Lord and become one spirit with Him.
The Season of Preparation
After a period of soaking and fire around August 2011, in which I had some profound soaking room experiences, then between August and October 2011, in times of corporate worship, I began to experience what felt like a thick, dark cloud. I did not understand what it was. I was not afraid—but I was confused and disoriented. What was going on? Why was I having these experiences? What was happening? I asked a lot of questions.
Why Would God Hide?
So I began to look into it—what are dark clouds all about? I started exploring the significance of dark clouds in Scripture, and what I found was that God hides within a dark cloud to protect us from the intensity of His presence before we are fully prepared and ready to meet Him face to face.
This is not God keeping us away—this is God protecting us, but also preparing us. He draws us into His presence by leading us through a dark cloud of trust. The question becomes: will I trust Him enough to go through that dark cloud to enter into His presence—or will I back off, be afraid, and run from the experience?
Israel’s Encounter
In Deuteronomy 4:11, we read about Israel’s experience:
“You came forward and stood at the foot of the mountain. The mountain was burning with fire to the heart of the heavens—darkness, cloud and thick gloom.”
Of course they were afraid. They had spent 400 years in Egypt, in bondage, with little to no real relationship with God. And when they came out of that, they carried so much of Egypt with them—control, manipulation and fear. So, when God invited them up the mountain to meet Him, they were afraid. They drew back, and they failed to accept that invitation.
The Glory in the Cloud
In 2 Samuel 22:12, it says:
He made darkness canopies around Him, massive waters, thick clouds of the sky.
And in 1 Kings 8:10,
When the priests came out of the holy place, the cloud filled the house of the Lord, so that the priests could not stand to minister because of the cloud, for the glory of the Lord filled the house.
Now, when we think of the glory of the Lord, we usually think of light—but actually, God had to protect them from the fullness of His glory, from the intensity of His essence, from the blinding light of His presence. Solomon understood this. In verse 12, he said,
“The Lord has said that He would dwell in the thick darkness.”
So Solomon recognised that this thick cloud was not hiding God out of reluctance, but protecting the people. Even in that cloud, they could not stand—the weight of God’s presence was too great. But within that dark cloud, when God came to occupy the Holy of Holies, He was actually shielding them from the light of His presence—until Jesus came to reveal the light as the Light of the World, to reveal the true nature of God.
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Hidden in Mystery
Psalm 18:11 says, He made darkness His hiding place, His canopy around Him, darkness of waters, thick clouds.
The Passion Translation renders it this way:
Wrapped in thick cloud-darkness, His thunder-tabernacle surrounded Him. He hid Himself in mystery-darkness. The dense rain clouds were His garments.
This is an invitation. God is calling us into that mystery—to see whether we will trust Him. Are we willing to go through the dark cloud in order to encounter His person?
Psalm 97:2: Clouds and thick darkness surround Him; righteousness and justice are the foundation of His throne.
So why does God hide in a dark cloud? Because without it, He is unapproachable light. But He desires to prepare us so that we can approach Him in that light.
From Cloud to Light
Eventually, when I went into that light—having been prepared and having passed through the dark cloud—I could not remain there for even a fraction of a second. It was far too intense for me at that time, because the process of deconstruction and the renewal of my mind was still ongoing.
But I returned—and now I dwell in that approachable light. I dwell in the realm of light, in perfection. I abide there. It is my home, constantly, continually. And that was only possible because I went through the dark cloud. My soul and spirit were separated, then reintegrated. I was reconnected. And now, I can dwell in the realms of heaven continually.
Hidden Until We Are Ready
Interestingly, the Hebrew word for thick and dark is the same. It means that God is unseen or hidden from our direct sight—until we are ready, until we are prepared to meet Him face to face. And that is our destiny. That is the purpose of restoring first love. God does not want to keep us at a distance—but He wants us to be safe and secure in His presence. And that requires transformation.
Activation: Guided Meditation
I encourage you to just close your eyes. Get relaxed.
You may want to lie down. Just begin to relax your body.
You may want to start focusing on your breathing. Breathe in slowly… and hold it… Then breathe it out slowly.
And as you are breathing in and breathing out, Begin to focus your thinking on God, The Father, who is love.
As you begin to breathe in, You are breathing in unconditional love— The love of the Father for you As a son, as a daughter, as a child.
Breathe it in… And as you breathe it in, That unconditional love begins to flow through your whole being— Touching every cell of your body: Your mind, Your emotions, The whole of your soul, spirit and body.
So you can be still… And let God love on you. Let Him show you how much He loves you.
As His love fills you, Let joy and peace come and overwhelm you— Cocoon you. Let all of His being begin to flow in you. An atmosphere forms around you— A cocoon of love, joy and peace That you are just resting in, Relaxing in.
Be still. Wait. Just rest. Just wait—expectantly— For whatever God wants to do with you right now.
This is a safe place. You can get out of that boat—figuratively. You can choose to abandon yourself: Sink into that vast ocean of unconditional love, Where God’s love is so strong, so powerful, That you can trust Him— That He is a good God— That He wants the best for you.
Just go deeper and deeper into that love, As He restores that first love to you.
You can sink deeper… And deeper… There may be things around you that you sense or feel. Be willing to go deeper and deeper into love.
From my perspective, it is like there are two scrolls. One is the scroll written of me by the Father—it is the scroll of my destiny, of my identity. The other is the scroll that is the record of my life—how I have actually lived.
Some of my life has been aligned with that identity and destiny, and some of it has not. When I engaged the judgment seat of Christ and the fire of God’s presence, I took the scroll of my life. Literally, of course, it is me stepping into that place—but the scroll is a way of relating to the process.
The Bible describes scrolls being written front and back, and that was my experience too. I brought that scroll before the Father. All I saw was a consuming fire—His eyes—and the scroll was opened.
Understanding Our Destiny
On the front side of the scroll, I saw wood, hay and straw—and also gold, silver and precious stones. These represented the things I had done as a believer. This was not about my life before I knew Christ—because everything from that time, every action rooted in lost identity, has already been forgiven and dealt with at the cross.
What I was seeing was my life in Christ—how I had lived in relationship with God. Some things had mixed motives. I was doing certain things to affirm my identity, to validate myself through activity. They were not necessarily wrong, but the motive was not pure.
And He consumed all of those things—everything described as wood, hay and straw. But the gold, silver and precious stones remained. My scroll—my life—was refined. Everything contradictory was removed. There was no guilt, no shame, no condemnation—just love.
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Reflecting on Life Choices
On the reverse side of the scroll, I saw more gold, silver and precious stones—and more wood, hay and straw. This represented the things I had done in alignment with the Father’s heart, and also the things I had missed—things I could have done, but did not.
Some of those omissions came because I was not paying attention, or I was too busy, or simply unaware of what the Father was doing. As I began to feel sorrow and regret for missing those things, He just lovingly consumed it all—no condemnation, no guilt—just love.
That love removed all potential for the enemy to accuse me, or for me to condemn myself. He purified my scroll—my life—completely, so that nothing could hold me back.
The Judgment Seat of Christ
The judgment seat of Christ is not about punishment. It is about purification. It is about bringing our lives into alignment with who the Father says we are—not who we have been shaped to be by the world, our culture, our upbringing or religious systems.
Religion warps our identity. But God wants to reveal our true identity as sons. He wants us to operate from the truth of who we are in Him—not the false version formed by lost identity.
He has continued to speak to me—to reveal the vast sum of His thoughts about me, so I can come into deeper understanding of who I really am. I do not know everything yet—He is still revealing. But that is relationship. Sonship is discovered through relationship.
God’s Love and Forgiveness
In that relationship, He continues to purify and refine my life—removing anything that might hinder me from progressively knowing who I truly am and living from that reality. I know there were many times I acted from mixed motives—trying to earn or prove my identity.
But He has removed that mixture. The pure in heart will see God, and I did not want anything impure clouding that. In His kindness and generosity, He purified not only the record of my life, but also my memory of it.
There are things I can no longer recall—literally gone—wiped clean by His love and grace. And that is just His mercy and His wonderful, overwhelming love.
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When we are looking at how we govern from our throne—what we do from that place of authority—we do not want to act outside of what we see the Father doing. When it comes to releasing frequencies, what we are really doing is releasing intention: a focused desire that originates in God’s heart. The words we speak, the thoughts we carry, and the intentions we release should all flow from the heart of God—and therefore from love.
If you want to attract people into your life who will be complementary, helpful, and aligned with your destiny, then I would encourage you to focus your intention on God’s heart for you. His desire is for you to be blessed, to prosper, and to succeed. Friendship and relationship are part of that blessing.
So, from my throne, knowing God’s heart for me is to be blessed relationally, I release a frequency—which is essentially my intention. When I release that intention, I am releasing my desire for God’s desire for me to be outworked in my life.
Releasing Positive Frequencies
My thoughts and intentions, then, are focused: “I want this frequency.” I can also use words, because spoken words carry frequency. When we speak them into being, they resonate out into the atmosphere—into the spiritual atmosphere—and connect with the spirits of people. Some of those people may already be seeking connection; others may not be, but they will be drawn to that frequency—the energy of the words, the intention, and the thoughts released.
How do you do this? Very simply. You sit on your throne, and you think—with intention—to release your desire to connect with those people who will be beneficial to your life and to whom you will also be beneficial. You might make a declaration: I decree that those people who will be beneficial for my life, and I for theirs, in relationship and fellowship, we will connect. I release this frequency to draw them into my circle of life, so I can find and connect with them—whether personally, physically, online, or however it may be.
Speak the words that follow the intention and thought of your heart—aligned to God’s desires—and as you speak them out, they will vibrate with energy, reaching out to connect with others. When God once told me to release a blue light, I had no idea how to do that. So, all I did was say, “I release a blue light.” And in speaking those words, I created a blue light that reached people across the world. I did not understand the mechanics, but my desire created the reality. That light connected people to me—for the Joshua Generation and for governmental relationship.
Attracting Supportive Relationships
It was simple. I just did what I knew to do, because I desired to do what God had said. That was enough. It does not need to be complicated. You can think about it; you can even write something down that captures your intention.
The same principle applies to all areas of government from our throne. We never govern independently or out of our own understanding. We govern only in response to what we see the Father doing. This means we need face-to-face, heart-to-heart relationship with Him—because that is how His heart is unveiled to us. From there, we can creatively bring His government by making decrees, releasing intentions, even sending out angels.
One thing you can do to help connect with others is to send your angels to engage with their angels—to see whether a connection can be made. There is creativity in this. There is no rigid formula. You can make it up as you go along. As long as your motive is to fulfil God’s heart, there is freedom.
Some people may draw others simply through their thoughts and intentions. Others may need to speak out decrees, or take a specific action. When I was looking for relationship, I initially expected God to do everything. I knew how to release intention and did so—but still I was expecting Him to make it happen passively. Eventually, He showed me what to do. When I acted on what He revealed, that created the opportunity for relationship. I was not passive, I was active. But I did not go out and try to make something happen in my own strength—I remained at peace—but when He showed me, I acted.
The Power of Declarations
So, in terms of governing, we outwork His heart by decreeing, declaring, and operating within the angelic realm. There is so much we can do: making laws, writing legislation—if we have the mandate—but the key is this: operate out of who you are. Do not try to be someone else. Be you. Being who you truly are will attract others. It will draw those who resonate with you.
Your words become a fragrance—something people will either be drawn to or not. Some people will love it. Others will not. Just like with food—I love the smell of curry and spicy dishes, but I am not drawn to the smell of fish because I really do not like it. The same principle applies here: the right fragrance—the frequency of your words, thoughts, and intentions—will draw the right people. And it all flows from living as your true self, aligned with the heart of the Father.
I think when revelation comes out, people jump on that revelation even if they are not at the level of maturity to be able to operate in it fully. So when benches came out years ago, when governmental authority first emerged, many tried to use it immaturely—confrontationally and law-based—without understanding God’s heart. True government comes from love and maturity, reflecting the Father’s heart. And real authority is restorative, not punitive, focusing on blessing and alignment with God’s purposes rather than opposition or control.
The key is not to get disappointed—maturity takes time and comes from operating in God’s heart, not from rules or protocols. God values relationship and change often happens in transition from the old to the new. Authority depends on jurisdiction; laws only work where God grants authority. It is important to understand those boundaries. And most heavenly laws are permissive: they empower you to do something—they do not restrict you.
A Blue Light Call
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Questioner: Now I have a question, Mike. I live in the greater Indianapolis area, just outside the city, in a suburb called Fishers. I have done everything I know to try to come into contact with others in the region who are more mystically minded—people who have more of a mystical mindset—and I have got nowhere. I have tried various ways. Just before I came on with you this morning, I was sitting here on the couch, and I remembered the blue light that you have talked about. So, I sent out a blue light. But I am wondering—if you have any record of people in this area, I would be happy to send you my phone number or email. I have no problem with you passing that along to anyone in this region who might want to connect.
I would love to come into fellowship with like-minded people. I have a very good friend who still lives in Florida, where I used to live, and we talk all the time. He is very spiritually compatible, and we bless each other in conversation. But apart from him, he is really the only person I have that kind of direct relationship with.
Any thoughts or suggestions?
Mike: Yes, I would say issuing a call in the spirit is a great starting point—and then being open to how that comes back. That is the key. Because people may pick up on that call. But then, how do they know how to contact you? That is always a bit of a question. So, you have to trust that God can handle how those contacts come together.
There was a group—I have a group that meets tonight actually, here in the UK or Europe in general—and several people in that group asked that exact same question: “Is there anyone else around us we can connect with physically?” I think they lived around the Welsh-English border or somewhere like that. I said to them, “Okay—put out a call. Send out a frequency.” And now, five or six of them have actually connected physically and meet regularly. So yes, it can work. And they were all asking the same thing: “Is there anyone else out there who connects with this in the same way?”
Now, I do not personally know where people are located within the Engaging God programme or Patreon. You would have to look at every individual account to find out their location—if they even included it. I do not have that information. There could well be people in your area. I would suggest putting a message on the Patreon forum or the Engaging God forum: “Hey, I am from this area—is anyone else out there who wants to connect?”
That is one way of doing it. Another would be to post a comment under one of the videos we put out: “Is there anyone from this area who would like to connect?” Or put something out on Facebook. So, there are practical things you can do, as well as what you do in the spirit. But I would say: doing it in the spirit comes first and then those are ways that frequency can actually connect with people in a practical way.
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The Father can give you insight into how to connect. You have a Facebook presence, a GAN presence—use those networks. Post something and ask, “Is there anyone in this location who wants to connect?” and just see what comes back. The same would apply on a Don Keathley post or something like that. Post something like, “Hey, I am really interested in this,” or in one of the forums you are in, or one of the groups—just ask, “Is there anyone in this area who would like to connect physically or online?” Start a conversation that way.
I know it is not always easy when we cannot connect physically with people. I am in quite the opposite situation, in that I am obviously connecting with a lot of people in these sorts of forums. But it is never easy. What I have discovered is that generally, God is at work with people far more than we think. But many are quiet and remain silent because they do not want to get trolled online or abused by those still operating within the church system or other systems. And that does happen.
I had to deal with quite a bit of that when we first started posting things that challenged traditional views of God and the evangelical perspective. There were people who tried to change my thinking, who challenged my views, who wanted me to shift my perspective. Some made accusations against me—and quite honestly, I was happy to accept some of those accusations. Yes, I was moving away from their orthodoxy, but I was moving back towards the original orthodoxy that Jesus promoted. What I did not do was take offence or try to argue with them. At first, I had a few discussions, but I quickly realised they did not lead anywhere because we were simply not on the same page.
There are a lot of people out there, but they are keeping their heads down. Particularly in the US, there is such a strong religious spirit that attacks and undermines anyone with opposing views—whether eschatological, spiritual or related to inclusivism or grace. We saw this when people first started talking about the limitless grace of God. They were accused of promoting ‘greasy grace’ and were disparaged in all sorts of ways. So many people have chosen to remain quiet. They are just getting on with it because they do not want that kind of exposure.
It is hard. I remember God preparing me to handle criticism and negativity without taking offence—and helping me learn to manage it in the right way. There were a few people I had to block, simply because they were not respectful. They did not respect the boundaries we had set on our material. In the end, I just said, “Look, I will have to block you. You are not following the guidelines we have laid out.”
There have only been a few like that, not many. I am sure there are lots of people out there who oppose some of my beliefs or the things we post, but generally, I do not see the negative stuff—and I would rather they not see ours either. I do not want to offend people if they are not ready to explore something more open.
So yes, I would encourage you to stay positive. Send out those blue lights, but also consider the practical things you can do to find out where connections might be made. See how God might bring those connections about. There are far more ways to do that now than there were when I started. Back then, I did not know anyone. I had no idea how to connect with anyone. But God wanted people to connect with me—and they did.
People actually reached out. When I sent out the blue light and other things like that, people found ways of making contact. One of the first people who connected with me when we started putting out blog posts said, “Hey, I have questions I would like to ask. I think there are others who would too. Can I create a forum for you?” I did not even know what a forum was! But I said, “Yes, go ahead.” He said, “I will give you admin access, and you can manage it once it is set up.”
So he started this forum and asked, “What would you like it to be called?” I said, “Preparing for Destiny—let us call it that.” And within a short time, there were ten, twelve, fifteen people regularly posting questions and opening the door for me to respond and connect.
Then God said, “I want you to connect with people online in a more personal way—not just through answering questions.” So I used that forum as a starting point. I posted something like, “I am looking to do an online mentoring session or just a get-together. Who would be interested?” Four people said yes. That is how it started. Once we began posting videos on YouTube, more people started saying, “How can I connect? How can I receive mentoring? How can I join these forums?” And it spiralled from there.
When God said, “I want you to do it,” I had no idea how it would happen. I just said, “I am willing. Let us see how it comes together.” And God engineered it over time. There were lots of occasions where it just happened. People contacted me and said, “You came up on my stream,” or, “You were suggested to me on YouTube,” and then connections were made that way.
If you have an online presence, it is easier to make those connections. But we can also use other people’s forums to connect with like-minded people who are exploring similar things. If you are on Justin’s Patreon group, for instance, there is an opportunity to post and ask, “Is there anyone near this location who would like to meet?” You can try that. If no one responds, then either there is no one there, or they are not ready to connect—and there is not much you can do about that.
America is a big country. It is very spread out. If we optimistically estimate there are 100,000 people in the US who are exploring this area, they are going to be scattered far and wide. Likely, they are concentrated more in larger population centres—California, for example—than in rural areas or large agricultural states. So no, I am not saying it is easy to make these connections. Someone on a previous call asked if I knew anyone in a certain part of Australia. I said, “No, I have never been to Australia in a ministry setting, so I have not made those connections.” Though I have had a few calls with people there, and some are part of the programme. Whether they live in the same city is another matter. I did suggest that Justin has done quite a bit over there in the past, so his team might have some points of contact. I told them, “Email the team and ask if there is a connection in your city.”
There are still not that many physical groups meeting regularly on a larger scale. There is one in California—I will be visiting them for a few days at the end of April, beginning of May. They have a physical group meeting there. I know there was a group that used to meet in the Atlanta area, and one in Toronto. But we are not at the point where you could say there is a network of churches all over the US meeting in this way. Same goes for the UK. People ask me the same thing—“Is there anyone I can connect with physically?” All I can do is point them to people I know, but I do not know what those people are doing now. There is Company of Burning Hearts, Glory Company—so there are a few groups. But not in every area. Not that I am aware of anyway. We are still in the early days of that, I think.
Another questioner: I just want to add a follow-up question to what Dan articulated. I suppose I did not catch what was said about the blue light. Could you define what that is—who it is, what it is, how you engage with it, and so on?
Mike: Right, okay. This probably goes back to 2013 initially. The Father spoke to me and said, “I want you to send out a blue light call.” My initial reaction was, “Okay,” but I had no idea how to do that. So I was sitting in heaven on my throne and I said, “I issue a blue light call.” That was it. I did not know anything more to do than simply that. So I did it.
Then I went back to God and said, “Well, what is it for?” He showed me this picture of arcing connections across the world, where people would be connecting and there would be intersections of those connections. The blue light would call those people, and they would begin to connect.
So I thought, “Oh okay, great,” and I did not think much more of it. A couple of weeks later, I was in a physical meeting with some local church ministers in my area at the time. One of them, whom I was fairly friendly with, said to me afterwards, “Do you know anything about a blue light?” I said, “Well, maybe. What do you mean?” And he said, “Well, every time I have been engaging, praying and so on over the last couple of weeks, these blue lights have been coming around me, dancing around me.”
So I asked, “Do you have time after the meeting?” and we connected. I said, “Yes, I issued this blue light call for people who would come together and form governmental connections around the world.” From there, we started meeting to engage in that sort of thing.
I did not go into more detail, because I had not really done anything beyond releasing it. But I have received testimonies from lots of people over the years. Blue lights have come into their rooms, or they have had dreams with balls of blue light. One lady in New Zealand said blue lights were following her car every night. So there are lots of testimonies. And God has asked me to release that call again. It is still out there. It does not stop.
Questioner: I think I told you this before, but when I first came to see you out in Barnstaple, I saw a blue light in the room—at least once, maybe twice. It was like a ball. I thought, “Oh my goodness.”
Mike: That is essentially the gist of it. Whatever you do in the spirit does not just stop—unless God puts a time limit on something. It carries on in the spiritual realm. So people can still connect with and resonate with that blue light call even now. I have issued it a number of times since, for various specific reasons when God directed me to.
I believe God is still wanting to connect people globally in a way that allows for arcing together—forming significant connections for what He is doing. Later on, I connected with Nancy Coen, and she had a vision of a blue grid around the globe. That was just another way of seeing the same thing, really. You begin to realise that God has probably been doing this with a lot of people for a long time!
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Going in to meet the person of God—that is an experience beyond any other I’ve ever had. I could never have entered into that in the state I was in, but God began to change me, prepare me, in all those things in the soaking room, so I could get to that place where I was able to meet Him face to face. Now, I’d met God in many different ways, but there’s a difference between engaging the presence of God and engaging the person of God.
Metamorphosis
Metamorphosis is a process that produces transformation. Not only do things get removed, but things also get changed, added, to enable us to go into deeper levels of intimacy. So we have the ability to live in multi-dimensional realms, in the fullness of our eternal nature and identity.
An example in nature of metamorphosis is the transformation of a tadpole into a frog. It hatches from spawn and begins life restricted to water, breathing through gills—but that’s not God’s intention for it, that’s just the beginning. The tadpole eventually loses its gills and tail, develops legs and a new respiratory system, so as a frog it can be free from restrictions and live in both water and on land. A butterfly goes through a similar process—starting as a caterpillar, restricted to crawling on the earth, but changing through the chrysalis into something that is free to fly.
These are symbolic of the change and transformation that’s needed. We also go through a similar transformation that removes, adds, and restores abilities.
Many times in the Bible, you’ll find characters placed in a place of restriction to prepare them for their destiny. Now, sometimes people really struggle with that. They find it really difficult—to be restricted. They think God is putting that restriction on them in a negative way. But it is a positive thing when God places us in a position that brings about the change and transformation needed in our lives.
Some examples of that—Jacob under Laban, where he was looking to receive his wife, and there were all these conditions put on him, and tricks and everything else, but it produced character in him. Moses in the wilderness—he was called, but lived in the wilderness until he was able to take his position, after he had matured. David in Adullam’s cave—called for the kingdom, but in this place with a group of misfits, and God used that. Jeremiah was in anguish of soul, but came out into a place of fulfilling his destiny.
And then Joseph and Esther—they were also prepared. Joseph was prepared in the pit—his brothers threw him into the pit. How difficult must that have been? Then in slavery, in stewardship, and in prison—the prison of obscurity—until the time was right when his dreams and destiny would be fulfilled. Joseph, in his father’s house, was never going to fulfil his destiny. It was Joseph who’d gone through the process of change and transformation, who grew, who matured, who would end up in leadership in Egypt—in a way beyond what we’d have thought possible. But God prepared him, took him through seeming injustice and different situations that so challenged him—and yet he remained humble through those situations.
Esther went through 12 months of preparation before she could come before the king. That was so difficult. I’ve engaged Esther in the spirit—I’ve engaged her in the cloud of witnesses. I asked her, “What was it like?” And she said, “I didn’t want to be prepared to go and see the king.” That was not something a young Jewish girl would ever have wanted—to be a concubine of a king, a foreign king. But God had a purpose for Esther that would bring about the salvation of her people.
So it’s really important we don’t just look at the external circumstances of our life and think, “This is terrible. How can I get out of this?” We need to understand that sometimes, places of restriction are the places of greatest transformation.
For our soul to be prepared, there needs to be an identification of the things in our lives that are hindrances—coping mechanisms, defence mechanisms, trauma—and all of that leads us to a place of surrender. We surrender our independence. We learn to trust the Father for our provision, protection and direction in life. We’re no longer going to do it by the DIY tree path.
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Realign with our divine origin
Our spirits, souls and bodies realign with our divine origin—get realigned and brought into union and oneness with each other and with God. The identification of our false identity and any works- or performance-based orientation gives us the opportunity to find our true origin and redemptive gifts.
There’s preparation for glorious sonship in restored First Love, and creation is longing and waiting for the revealing of the sons of God—for the revealing of our true nature and how that can bring freedom to the whole of creation.
So the soaking room experiences began to engage my body, they began to engage my soul, to prepare my body to radiate glory and my soul to operate in light. This soaking begins to realign the frequencies of our being, to restore resonance with God, with our true identity—harmony and balance to our whole being.
We experience the sound and light frequencies of glory—God’s nature—for transfiguration from one degree of glory to another. We don’t stay the same. We increase in glory. So we increase in the full revelation of who we are, and begin to express that and live from that place.
Now literally, excitation of light waves of specific frequencies causes our DNA photons to be energised and transformed. That light is God Himself. We begin to be transfigured in light by God, who is light. We become sons of light, living in physical and emotional harmony, health and wholeness—and it all happens by the presence of God.
The symbols of the things in soaking are symbols of God’s presence—of God Himself. God as our Father is calling us to embrace the restrictions of transformation, to receive the freedom of our sonship. And it’s so important that we receive that freedom, so we can receive the full revelation of our eternal destiny—to live trans- and multi-dimensional existences, fully embracing all of the eternal characteristics of sonship that are our eternal identity, our true authentic self.
John 3:30 says, “He must increase, but I must decrease.” Now I’ve heard that preached as if it’s something we need to beat ourselves up about—as if we need to put ourselves on the cross every day. It doesn’t mean that. He reveals in me what is like Him—I embrace that. He takes away from me what is not like Him—I embrace that. It’s not something I have to try and do, like “I’ve got to decrease,” as if I’m nobody and nothing and with this sort of false humility. No—this is allowing Him to increase. Therefore, if He increases, then everything that’s not like Him falls away.
So I learn to surrender, where I can present myself to Him—I can be changed, conformed to sonship through this whole process by allowing Him to soak me in His presence.
So, what is soaking? Soaking is to make or allow something to become thoroughly wet by immersing it in liquid—that’s the dictionary definition: to immerse, to steep, to submerge, to submerse, to dip, to sink, to dunk, to bathe, to wet, to rinse, to douse, to marinate, to steep, to pickle. I mean, some of it’s really important.
To baptise in water, to baptise in the Spirit, to baptise in fire—in which we are immersed in those things which bring about the changes. I’ll go into that in more detail in a future session when I look at the heat and how heat transforms us. But the soaking room is the place of preparation that has parallel heavenly encounters in the River of Life, which is a river of energy—of Spirit—and in the river of fire.
God is a consuming fire. His love is a consuming fire. We can be baptised in the River of Life and in the associated waterfalls that cascade down. We can be baptised in the river of fire, engage the altars of fire, engage the process. See, the River of Life is Spirit energy—living water. It’s not H₂O, but the very essence of life, encoded with the frequencies of God—God’s essence. And when we are baptised into it, when we submerge ourselves into it, it begins to change and transform us.
The sound of many waters—it says God’s voice is like the sound of many waters. The sound of many waters are the creational frequencies of God’s voice that will realign us to who God created us to be.
I encourage you right now
just to close your eyes.
Get comfortable.
Begin to relax.
To focus your thinking on God.
Focus your thinking
on God’s love, grace, mercy for you.
Focus your breathing by slowing down.
Breathe in more slowly.
Breathe in more deeply.
And as you’re breathing in,
you’re breathing in
the unconditional love of the Father.
You’re breathing in love.
You’re breathing in joy, and peace.
And as you breathe it in, just receive.
Let it flow into your being.
Whether you feel it, or sense it,
just let it flow.
Continue to be still.
Breathe in
and breathe out slowly.
Breathe in slowly
and breathe out slowly.
Slow everything down and totally relax.
Just become mindful
that you’re cocooned
right now
in God’s presence.
As you are still,
He is cocooning you in love.
He’s loving on you.
Consciously invite love,
invite joy,
invite peace,
to come upon you,
to flow in you,
to flow through you—
to create an atmosphere of rest around you
that you are completely submerged in –
baptised into the higher frequency of love.
Vibrating in that energy.
Vibrating in peace and joy.
Overshadowed with the presence of the Holy Spirit,
energising you,
transforming you,
changing you.
Be open to that overshadowing.
For the presence of God
to rest upon you.
Quite a lot of deconstruction and renewing of our minds is needed to actually know the truth—and then to live in that truth. A lot of people will say, “Oh yeah, I can be multi-dimensional,” and then you ask, “Well, how does that work for you?” and they can’t really answer. Because although they believe it’s true, they’re not yet living in that truth. And that’s okay, because we’re all on a journey.
But God wants us to embrace the fullness of our sonship, which carries with it a whole different quality of life—what Justin (Justin Paul Abraham) would call “beyond human.” It’s beyond the limitations of humanity, because mankind was made in the image of God. We were never supposed to create our own image. Humanity, as we know it, is the image we’ve created for ourselves.
And I’m not going to be restricted by being human—because I’m not just human. I’m a son of God. I’m created to be beyond purely human, even though I’m living in a human plane of existence. I’m meant to live in a completely different realm—one of sonship. I believe that’s what the Father really wants to help us embrace and begin to live out. So yes, our immortality is definitely on the Father’s agenda—to get people to start thinking about the possibility, then embrace the possibility, and eventually go and live the possibility as a reality.
Of course, if you’re going to live forever, it raises a whole load of other questions: how, where, what are you going to do, how are you going to eat? All those questions. Some of the conferences Justin has been part of—and others as well—are beginning to ask these things. For example, what is the economy of immortality? Are we going to live on a financial plane, or are we going to rise above finances?
Are we talking about an economy of well-being, where simply being completely and utterly content and fulfilled in being me would free me from any need for recognition from others, or from the need to produce a self-image? Because I wouldn’t need that anymore.
Money is often tied to value and worth. If you earn more money, you’re seen as having more value to society. Your self-worth gets programmed into what makes you valuable—and often that boils down to money. In the world’s eyes, if you earn more, you must be more valuable. But actually, God wants us to see that it’s the image He made us in. He created us with value and worth intrinsically built in. I believe an economy of immortality is one free from money. That doesn’t mean there won’t be a functioning system—but if everyone is doing what they’re designed to do, no one needs to be paid for it, because we’d all support each other out of who we are and what we’re called to do.
If we were living in, say, a restoration city, and I’m doing what I’m meant to be doing while others are doing what they’re meant to be doing, then the whole thing functions. We don’t need a hierarchical system. I’m blessing someone, and someone’s blessing me—that’s covenant. The economy of immortality is covenant: what’s mine is yours, and what’s yours is mine. We’d all have enough for our needs and an abundance of overflow, because Jesus promised us abundant life—life in all its fullness.
So, what I see is that when we remove the limitations of identity that come through humanity, we also remove the programming that humanity has placed upon people—programming based on works, performance-driven worth, and earned value. All I need to do is be me. And if we’re all being who God intended us to be, then we’re not comparing ourselves with each other. I’m not saying, “I’m doing a more important job than you, therefore I’m worth more.” No—I only need to be me, and you only need to be you. That’s how we value each other—not by what we do, but by who we are.
That completely removes the need for financial remuneration. Money doesn’t have to make the world go round. And I think that’s where we’ll end up when we really start looking at the practical implications of living in immortality. What changes would that bring to the world if people began to live like that? I believe it would make a significant difference to our attitudes and our mindsets—towards each other, towards the world.
Because my sonship is connected to creation, and creation values me as a son. Creation gives me a place within its greater purpose, because creation is longing and waiting for the revealing of the sons of God, so that it too can be set free. There’s a vested interest, from creation’s point of view, in me being me—because that plays a role in creation’s freedom.
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